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Apparently it's going to be one of those months.
So. As if it isn’t enough that I have finals in a week and I’m not ready, my best friends seem to be ignoring me on facebook, and they live far away so I can’t even call/talk to them face-to-face. Someone whom I was very interested in Omegle-ing with seems to have vanished. I haven’t left my corridor in almost a week, and it’s cold and won’t stop raining. I miss my mom. I’ll be celebrating my birthday without her for the first time and it’s all I can do to not cry when I’m talking to her on the phone, because she’s doing enough crying as it is. I miss my sister and her ridiculous phone calls. Sometimes I think she’s the only one who can make me laugh properly. I feel touch starved, and I need hugs and cuddles to settle down because I feel like I want to crawl out of my skin right now.
I feel like I have nothing to look forward to, and like I’ll never be happy again. Some-things make me smile but it never lasts and I just sink right back down into this pit again.
Goddamn it. I hate this.
Only good thing out of this disaster is raffi
I thought it was getting better, bb. But it's not. It's getting a lot worse. I've never been so bad as to not want chocolate. I'm scaring myself.