thoughts this week

Mar 16, 2014 20:58

- i actually fucking hate frozen breaded mushrooms because they are disgusting and i only buy them for the crispy bits. if i could get a bag full of frozen crispy bits i would die a happy woman ( Read more... )

i don't even know anymore, my life is a soap opera, life lessons, family! thou art my bane, what is my life, love?, exaustion, aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaangst, luck wishing necessary, emotional instability, crack, rl

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obsessionality March 21 2014, 00:06:43 UTC
Thanks bb. Yeah, it's the exact same thing for me. But sometimes I feel like I want to be happy. I read happy, fluffy things and I feel so good about it, but then when I try to write it's like every good thing turns black and horrible and sad. I want there to be some contrast, but it feels like all I want to write about (and talk about) is being sad, and alone. :(

Nope he definitely doesn't know. I've just blocked him on FB. Eurgh.

I know I shouldn't care. But I do. It's one of those subconscious things. I genuinely, objectively believe it doesn't matter. And then there's the mean voice in my head that's like you're losing control of your life and it shows.

:P I've never been high! And I think all of that is hot air. I know someone offered me a joint last year and I turned them down flat. When it comes to it, I think I'd say no to any sort of chemical influence, I mean, I don't even drink. I guess I just want to relax and that seems to be the easy way out!

Thanks for talking to me, though. I do love it, and it really does help, to know that I've put my inner most thoughts out here and that people aren't repelled. It helps. *hugs*

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