May 31, 2013 00:20
Hello everyone! I hope ya'll have been well! I'm glad to let you know that my papers finished yesterday, so you won't hear much more of me being a whiny bitch about them, thank god for that.
I've achieved quite a lot in the past three days, I think. I turned 21, which is a miracle considering I didn't think I'd survive this year. I finished two papers, the last of six. I watched Iron Man 3 and Star Trek: Into Darkness on two consecutive days. I found new friends to have debates about, over the Marvel universe. I've consumed 2.5 pints of cider, willingly, which is an achievement considering I don't drink. I've saved a friend from being caught on fire. Well, she caught on fire and we mostly just screamed at her to take her clothes off because she didn't realise what was going on, but yeah. I'll count that as a win. I finally stepped down from my exec position, thank fucking god for that oh my god. I've picked the perfect birthday gift for ES, who'll be turning 23 on Tuesday (I hope she likes it). I have not yet been crippled by the feels but I'm expecting them to hit soon.
This last week, even before the past three days, has been difficult. I had an internship, in Singapore, and on Friday it was retracted because the clients whom I was supposed to be shadowing snapped out confidentiality requirements, and my potential-boss had to let me go before I even started. I was devastated, because I'd been banking on it. It was a tough week otherwise because time was just crawling, and I'd given up all will to even try. I just needed it to be over. Each minute felt like an hour, and each day like an eternity. It was horrible. I swear, when my last paper finished, on Wednesday afternoon, I had bona fide tears leaking from my eyes because it felt like a massive weight had been lifted from my shoulders. I haven't yet baked my traditional post-exam cake, but it will be coming soon.
I can't believe second year is over. I'm now more than half way through law school. I need to start applying for training contracts and figuring out what I want to do with my life. Apparently Singapore is planning on cutting down the number of universities from which they recognize law degrees. Technically, they're unlikely to cull Durham (fingers crossed), but even if they do I should be allowed to rely on the state of affairs according to when I started, because I'd have reliance. Especially since the move is unprecedented.
Idk. I need to start thinking about a whole different bunch of issues now, but you know what? I'm going to enjoy myself for a bit. Start my packing and have a good time with my housemates and friends. I think I deserve it. I've been wrung dry by this few months. And this year has practically kicked the shit out of me. I didn't know I could stretch so far, so at least I know now. I'd rather not replicate the experience, though. God, please no.
work,
my life is a soap opera,
life lessons,
i think i broke my brain,
stress and terror,
stuff,
exaustion,
i cannot wait,
star trek: into darkness,
flailing,
iron man 3,
rl,
feeling old,
school!,
insane insanity