Melancholy Baby
A few thoughts for today...
1. I really think I would be happier and healthier if I lived in a place where the beach was within a half hour's drive and was sunny even 50% of the time.
2. I have friends who I found out this weekend that they are probably at a 75% chance of moving over a 1000 miles away. I know I've talked about this before - people moving on with their lives and that sort of thing - but this particular couple I am closer to than most. And it has me feeling very melancholy. It also solidifies my choice to move on myself...
3. Ok, I think I may have a problem. And I also think that I may bring on this problem to myself (so I really have no one else to blame if it becomes a real problem. I have this friend (a guy) - we used to work together. I knew he liked me (as more than a friend) - I was on the fence, but liked him as a friend, so I would occasionally flirt with him and we would hang out from time to time (going to dinner, watching football, no physical contact). Anyway, he had girlfriends and I had boyfriends, and it never went anywhere. [sidenore: He said last week that he declared his "intent to date," but I totally don't remember (and no, I'm not in denial about it, I truly don't).] He got married, I left our workplace and moved, we lost touch...then he texts me via cellphone in the fall (2005), and we email a bit there, but lose touch again. Now, strangely, it just so happens that he plays softball with a good friend of mine and they were talking and my name came up. SOOOO, we're in touch again. Here's where it gets a little dodgy... We're emailing and he just seems sad and lonely and if you've been reading this blog, you would be correct in thinking that I'm a bit the same lately. He told me that he is in that period where he is looking at "what could have been" -- I don't think he's doing so great with his wife; come to think of it, I don't think he was doing so great with her in the fall either, but I'm not so sure. So, here's the problem - I'm supposed to go to my friend and his softball game on Friday and we're supposed to hang out. And he's already kinda propositioned me. So I'm trying to figure out how to gracefully not let anything happen since he's married, but not make him even more bummed out, and also not egg him on by seeming really available, which sometimes happens with me inadvertently. Any thoughts out there about how best to do that??
1. I really think I would be happier and healthier if I lived in a place where the beach was within a half hour's drive and was sunny even 50% of the time.
2. I have friends who I found out this weekend that they are probably at a 75% chance of moving over a 1000 miles away. I know I've talked about this before - people moving on with their lives and that sort of thing - but this particular couple I am closer to than most. And it has me feeling very melancholy. It also solidifies my choice to move on myself...
3. Ok, I think I may have a problem. And I also think that I may bring on this problem to myself (so I really have no one else to blame if it becomes a real problem. I have this friend (a guy) - we used to work together. I knew he liked me (as more than a friend) - I was on the fence, but liked him as a friend, so I would occasionally flirt with him and we would hang out from time to time (going to dinner, watching football, no physical contact). Anyway, he had girlfriends and I had boyfriends, and it never went anywhere. [sidenore: He said last week that he declared his "intent to date," but I totally don't remember (and no, I'm not in denial about it, I truly don't).] He got married, I left our workplace and moved, we lost touch...then he texts me via cellphone in the fall (2005), and we email a bit there, but lose touch again. Now, strangely, it just so happens that he plays softball with a good friend of mine and they were talking and my name came up. SOOOO, we're in touch again. Here's where it gets a little dodgy... We're emailing and he just seems sad and lonely and if you've been reading this blog, you would be correct in thinking that I'm a bit the same lately. He told me that he is in that period where he is looking at "what could have been" -- I don't think he's doing so great with his wife; come to think of it, I don't think he was doing so great with her in the fall either, but I'm not so sure. So, here's the problem - I'm supposed to go to my friend and his softball game on Friday and we're supposed to hang out. And he's already kinda propositioned me. So I'm trying to figure out how to gracefully not let anything happen since he's married, but not make him even more bummed out, and also not egg him on by seeming really available, which sometimes happens with me inadvertently. Any thoughts out there about how best to do that??