Logical vs. Emotional
Saturday night, I went out with my usual hometown group of friends. We went out to this random bar in the next county - the only reason I'm telling you this is because on the way home I got seriously lost and let's just say, I won't be going to random bars anymore. Or will make someone else drive me. =)
Long story short, Irish was there. Irish was trying to get it on with some other girl. To put it mildly, this was unpleasant. I have a history of raging jealousy, which as I've gotten older, at least I've been able to control. The logical part of me said that I have no rights to him and we don't have an understanding, so there's no reason to be jealous, since what we have is very "fly by night" [literally]. The emotional part of me is like, seriously, why do I have to be here to watch this, and what the hell is he trying to do getting in this other girl's pants? I could have totally c*kblocked on them, but decided that it wasn't worth it.
I thought about it more today and while I'm really bummed out about it, I also realize that it's not like I want to settle down and have a relationship with Irish.
Long story short, Irish was there. Irish was trying to get it on with some other girl. To put it mildly, this was unpleasant. I have a history of raging jealousy, which as I've gotten older, at least I've been able to control. The logical part of me said that I have no rights to him and we don't have an understanding, so there's no reason to be jealous, since what we have is very "fly by night" [literally]. The emotional part of me is like, seriously, why do I have to be here to watch this, and what the hell is he trying to do getting in this other girl's pants? I could have totally c*kblocked on them, but decided that it wasn't worth it.
I thought about it more today and while I'm really bummed out about it, I also realize that it's not like I want to settle down and have a relationship with Irish.