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Oh jeez man...
Hmmm... life is really interesting right now. Things are just going well... hopefully they'll stay this way for a long time. That would be so nice.
My family life is good... my Mom's mood sometimes seems to reflect my own. When I'm good she's good. Which is probably why she was so bitchy when I was too. Post trek. Post sobriety... post life.
School is great... Katy's in my math class which makes it so much more fun. All we do is laugh and talk and laugh a whole lot more. I can always have a great fucking laugh with Katy... I love it.
My poetry class is wonderful. I can already tell it's going to be a phenomenal (sp?) class. I'm excited to get some good things down on paper... and to learn new things from everyone else in the class.
I got a job (temporarily) but still that's great. I'm getting at least 2 paychecks. so that's cool.
Ummm... what else is good in my life?
Outpatient... omg I never thought I'd say this... but I look forward to going. I can't wait to go tomorrow. Scott (the "facilitator" I guess you could call him) is so fucking amazing. I love him for so many reasons. He's a great therapist. he is so observant... so insightful... and best of all he knows how to get under everyone's skin. Everyone who's not willing to let him in that is. I'm the only one in the entire IOP who is willing to be sober... or willing to improve themselves in some way... whether it be with drugs or not. It's so frustrating how many people in the world don't understand themselves or the world around them. If people would listen to others... especially those who have something of importance to say... this world would be so wonderful. Everyone's lives would be full of intelligence... insightfulness and maturity. It amazes me how I am so much more mature and in touch with myself than SO many other people I know. Not to sound full of myself or anything... but that's how I feel. People, especially kids my age, are so superficial and so centered on themselves. Life isn't all about which new pair of jeans you should get next time you go shopping... it's not all about the school dance or highschool graduation. Life's about love... trust... and knowing yourself. Getting to know yourself is so much harder than getting to know someone else. Getting to know yourself takes years... it takes strength... and it takes patience.
I feel like there's so much more for me to say about this topic... yet I can't find the words to express it. So I'll just stick with that. Hopefully I'll be able to elaborate further later.
If you actually read I thank you... if not... I think you should.
I'm done.
Hmmm... life is really interesting right now. Things are just going well... hopefully they'll stay this way for a long time. That would be so nice.
My family life is good... my Mom's mood sometimes seems to reflect my own. When I'm good she's good. Which is probably why she was so bitchy when I was too. Post trek. Post sobriety... post life.
School is great... Katy's in my math class which makes it so much more fun. All we do is laugh and talk and laugh a whole lot more. I can always have a great fucking laugh with Katy... I love it.
My poetry class is wonderful. I can already tell it's going to be a phenomenal (sp?) class. I'm excited to get some good things down on paper... and to learn new things from everyone else in the class.
I got a job (temporarily) but still that's great. I'm getting at least 2 paychecks. so that's cool.
Ummm... what else is good in my life?
Outpatient... omg I never thought I'd say this... but I look forward to going. I can't wait to go tomorrow. Scott (the "facilitator" I guess you could call him) is so fucking amazing. I love him for so many reasons. He's a great therapist. he is so observant... so insightful... and best of all he knows how to get under everyone's skin. Everyone who's not willing to let him in that is. I'm the only one in the entire IOP who is willing to be sober... or willing to improve themselves in some way... whether it be with drugs or not. It's so frustrating how many people in the world don't understand themselves or the world around them. If people would listen to others... especially those who have something of importance to say... this world would be so wonderful. Everyone's lives would be full of intelligence... insightfulness and maturity. It amazes me how I am so much more mature and in touch with myself than SO many other people I know. Not to sound full of myself or anything... but that's how I feel. People, especially kids my age, are so superficial and so centered on themselves. Life isn't all about which new pair of jeans you should get next time you go shopping... it's not all about the school dance or highschool graduation. Life's about love... trust... and knowing yourself. Getting to know yourself is so much harder than getting to know someone else. Getting to know yourself takes years... it takes strength... and it takes patience.
I feel like there's so much more for me to say about this topic... yet I can't find the words to express it. So I'll just stick with that. Hopefully I'll be able to elaborate further later.
If you actually read I thank you... if not... I think you should.
I'm done.