Hrrrrmmmm...
God... why does there always gotta be some stupid shit that gets in the way of my being happy with a guy. Argh. So... the cousin... Seth. He likes me too. Fuck. But of course he's a good guy and wouldn't do that to his cousin. Which I totally understand and I can't really argue with him about it at all. He has a concience. As do I. Sometimes.
We're gonna hang out at Folklife hopefully. I feel like something could still happen... but I'm not planning on it. I don't want to get my hopes up. It's just so goddamn sad. Ugh. I hate this.
But yes.
I have to go over to Pat's one more time to return his sweatshirt. Seth thinks that I should still be friends with pat. But I dunno if Pat would go for that. He'd be too hung up on me and fucking me. And I would be too hung up on Seth... and wanting to fuck him. grrr.
I hope that Seth and I can still at least hang out sometimes. He's such a cool guy. I just love hanging out with him. And talking with him. It's so awesome just to sit down with someone of the opposite sex and have an intelligent, inspiring, fun, wonderful conversation with them. I hope things work out.
We're gonna hang out at Folklife hopefully. I feel like something could still happen... but I'm not planning on it. I don't want to get my hopes up. It's just so goddamn sad. Ugh. I hate this.
But yes.
I have to go over to Pat's one more time to return his sweatshirt. Seth thinks that I should still be friends with pat. But I dunno if Pat would go for that. He'd be too hung up on me and fucking me. And I would be too hung up on Seth... and wanting to fuck him. grrr.
I hope that Seth and I can still at least hang out sometimes. He's such a cool guy. I just love hanging out with him. And talking with him. It's so awesome just to sit down with someone of the opposite sex and have an intelligent, inspiring, fun, wonderful conversation with them. I hope things work out.