Jun 21, 2005 21:15
Dave, my ex boyfriend's brother's friend has just blocked me. He does not like me. I'm a loser, a weirdo. I think he expects me to go cry now. I don't think so. I am sad. I'm not going to go slit my wrist. Sorry, Fella.
Basically I am a loser. A huge loser. I'm a bigger loser than the guy who is 22 and can't drive and doesn't brush his teeth and sleeps on the floor. I'm a whore online. I'm must be an attention whore. I've gotten too many comments about it for it not to be true. I'm obsessed with random people. Or you could say I start to be clingy to anyone new I start to talk to a lot. So some will hate me. Others will befriend me.
I am pathetic. ^_^ I know. I use to avoid rl friends and I avoided going out. Now all I have is my MOTHER. At school no one likes me. I hate going to school. I get bullied by black girls. I sometimes think a bit like a racist sometimes. I should know its not all black people that are assholes.
I have two friends. There not much like me. Or at least I say that. They probably could be good friends if I tryed a little! Of course, I'm sitting here beating myself up which makes me MORE of a loser. Pathetic.
I want my cookies back damnit. >_<
People have said I try to hard... I'm too blunt... other things like that. I'm in self pity mode right now. ^_^ It sucks to be me.