adjusting
so yeah. stephen is here now and all the hospital craziness is out of the way (knock on wood). it's definitely an adjustment... but in different ways than i thought it would be. having someone else around the house and nowhere to go for privacy really hasn't been an issue. i don't feel like i've got to hide anything from him anyway. the hardest thing is watching him struggle to try and adjust to this area. anyone that knows this area knows that it's tremendously commercialized. having grown up right near here, i don't even really notice it. but it's a huge change from what he is used to and his discomfort with it is more than obvious. and ya know, i want him to be happy and all. so i'm trying my best to find someplace with personality down here. for me it was always a matter of heading out to joliet, chicago, or hanging out with friends and such. he's not big on car rides (he's spent an assload of time on the road getting here from orlando and my car is definitely not made for a 6'2 man) and he knows nobody else in the area. so yeah. it's been hard. he's bored. he's frustrated. and i'm frustrated because i don't feel like i can help and hate seeing him have a rough time with it. i mean, yeah, there are a lot of areas closer to downtown where this sort of thing is not an issue, but uh, my family is here, which is why i am here. one day to the next i guess. at least were not having problems with how we get along. the whole process is kind of intimidating.
on a different note. shit i want to get back to work. my cousin, who i'm supposed to be working for, hasn't gotten any work to me yet despite his overtures about sending it three weeks ago. stephen has to go back down to central il soon to visit his dad and when he does, i'm getting another office job. i need some semblence of sanity back in my life, and while working isn't exactly the kind of sanity that brings a smile to your face, at least its something that you can count on to take your mind off the things that are buggin ya.
i'm really happy with him. i hope there's a way that we can do this together and both be smilin.
on a different note. shit i want to get back to work. my cousin, who i'm supposed to be working for, hasn't gotten any work to me yet despite his overtures about sending it three weeks ago. stephen has to go back down to central il soon to visit his dad and when he does, i'm getting another office job. i need some semblence of sanity back in my life, and while working isn't exactly the kind of sanity that brings a smile to your face, at least its something that you can count on to take your mind off the things that are buggin ya.
i'm really happy with him. i hope there's a way that we can do this together and both be smilin.