Meh.
Lately I've been feeling rather lonely.
Most of my friends have full-time jobs, cars, money and are turning/just turned/already eighteen. I've been feeling like the odd one out. Sitting at home by myself on Saturday night watching B-grade black & white horror movies was when I came to this realisation.
I'm happy that my friends are old enough to go out and have fun, like Kelly for example. I'm glad that she is now eighteen and that she can go out clubbing and what not, but I haven't been seeing her as much now which has really hit me hard because we are so close.
And soon my other two best friends are going to be eighteen and they'll be out having fun in Surfers and going to eighteen plus gigs and I'll be the seventeen year old nerd who is stuck at home on the weekend, studying for uni. Don't get me wrong, I don't mind uni at all. It was my choice to not defer for a year and I wouldn't change that at all given the chance.
I know it seems kind of selfish, but I feel as though I'm going to be left out of a lot of things in the next few months until I finally turn eighteen in October.
Independance is a big thing for me and because I'm the youngn' with their L's, no car, no job, scabs off parent's for money and still lives at home I feel as though I have no independance.
So, I've been thinking of deferring Uni for a semester to perhaps pursue some kind of employment so when November 2nd (the day I can get my P's)comes around I will have some money so I can buy a car and not rely on my older friends as some kind of taxi service.
Either that or acquire some sort of falsified indendification so I can go a-clubbing.
And now for something completely; I think I am becoming an insomniac. Staying up til three and four o'clock in the morning isn't natural me-thinks. Anyone got any insomnia cures they would like to share?
Most of my friends have full-time jobs, cars, money and are turning/just turned/already eighteen. I've been feeling like the odd one out. Sitting at home by myself on Saturday night watching B-grade black & white horror movies was when I came to this realisation.
I'm happy that my friends are old enough to go out and have fun, like Kelly for example. I'm glad that she is now eighteen and that she can go out clubbing and what not, but I haven't been seeing her as much now which has really hit me hard because we are so close.
And soon my other two best friends are going to be eighteen and they'll be out having fun in Surfers and going to eighteen plus gigs and I'll be the seventeen year old nerd who is stuck at home on the weekend, studying for uni. Don't get me wrong, I don't mind uni at all. It was my choice to not defer for a year and I wouldn't change that at all given the chance.
I know it seems kind of selfish, but I feel as though I'm going to be left out of a lot of things in the next few months until I finally turn eighteen in October.
Independance is a big thing for me and because I'm the youngn' with their L's, no car, no job, scabs off parent's for money and still lives at home I feel as though I have no independance.
So, I've been thinking of deferring Uni for a semester to perhaps pursue some kind of employment so when November 2nd (the day I can get my P's)comes around I will have some money so I can buy a car and not rely on my older friends as some kind of taxi service.
Either that or acquire some sort of falsified indendification so I can go a-clubbing.
And now for something completely; I think I am becoming an insomniac. Staying up til three and four o'clock in the morning isn't natural me-thinks. Anyone got any insomnia cures they would like to share?