My room is hotter then I am
Well I guess I should update a little bit. I guess I've been happy yet slightly depressed. Fatty is missing. We honestly don't know where she disappeared to. I keep on trying to think that she's just pregnant and disappeared. Or that someone who doesn't have so many animals has found her and is taking care of her. I'm actually very upset by the fact that we can't find her.
Ever get the feeling like there are people you want to give you attention but completely lack interest and then there are people you want to give attention to but you do not want it. I actually feel really bad about my busy schedule and I also feel bad when old friends just completely lack any form of interest in talking to me. It actually bothers me a lot. I know they have other stuff going on in their life. And it doesn't necessarily mean that they have any issues with me, they are just at a different place then where I am in my life. Still, reminiscing is kind of upsetting because I think of all the good times I've had with certain people and I feel bad because either I lack the time for them or they lack the time for me. I guess it's a crash course in reality. Although it might not seem as though it is true, I do appreciate all of my friends and all the memories that I have are the positive ones, I don't really even think of the negatives or drama (and believe me, I instigated my fair share of it) whenever I go back in my mind.
This isn't one of those "omg i lost all of my friends" posts. It's mainly just a realization. I do still have friends but I just feel that people should know that...
Ever get the feeling like there are people you want to give you attention but completely lack interest and then there are people you want to give attention to but you do not want it. I actually feel really bad about my busy schedule and I also feel bad when old friends just completely lack any form of interest in talking to me. It actually bothers me a lot. I know they have other stuff going on in their life. And it doesn't necessarily mean that they have any issues with me, they are just at a different place then where I am in my life. Still, reminiscing is kind of upsetting because I think of all the good times I've had with certain people and I feel bad because either I lack the time for them or they lack the time for me. I guess it's a crash course in reality. Although it might not seem as though it is true, I do appreciate all of my friends and all the memories that I have are the positive ones, I don't really even think of the negatives or drama (and believe me, I instigated my fair share of it) whenever I go back in my mind.
This isn't one of those "omg i lost all of my friends" posts. It's mainly just a realization. I do still have friends but I just feel that people should know that...