Shit.
My mom abandoned me.....
Ashley, I'm at your grandparents house.
-I know.
Oh?
-It says so on the caller ID.
Did dad tell you why?
-Nope.
Oh. *muffle muffle, whisper whisper*
-JUST TELL ME ALREADY.
I'm not coming home for a while.
-Okay...?
I need to clear my head. I need to be alone.
-Alrighty...
I dont know how long I will be gone.
-That's fine...
Just wanted to let you know.
-Kay.
And then she tells me that she isn't abandoning me.
I'm not abandoning you, I'm just leaving.
WHAT THE FUCK???
I'm sick of this bullshit.
I'm sick of her being so cruel to my dad.
And to me.
ARGH.
I'm terrified they will get a divorce.
And if they do,
It will completely mutilate what's left of my life.
I will pull away from everybody, even more than I did before.
Last time, I almost lost all of my friends because of it.
And after recovering and regaining all the trust and dependency, I have better friendships with them.
I found somebody who I love to be with. Somebody who slightly understands and actually cares. I cant imagine not having him around. I miss the fuck out of that boy, and he left for vacation today.
I am horrified at the thought of losing these people.
Everything I fought so hard to get back.
Is falling apart.
There is no way I can hold this together.
I'm trying to, with every bit of energy I have.
It's just not enough anymore.
I dont have the strength to do this over again.
Ashley, I'm at your grandparents house.
-I know.
Oh?
-It says so on the caller ID.
Did dad tell you why?
-Nope.
Oh. *muffle muffle, whisper whisper*
-JUST TELL ME ALREADY.
I'm not coming home for a while.
-Okay...?
I need to clear my head. I need to be alone.
-Alrighty...
I dont know how long I will be gone.
-That's fine...
Just wanted to let you know.
-Kay.
And then she tells me that she isn't abandoning me.
I'm not abandoning you, I'm just leaving.
WHAT THE FUCK???
I'm sick of this bullshit.
I'm sick of her being so cruel to my dad.
And to me.
ARGH.
I'm terrified they will get a divorce.
And if they do,
It will completely mutilate what's left of my life.
I will pull away from everybody, even more than I did before.
Last time, I almost lost all of my friends because of it.
And after recovering and regaining all the trust and dependency, I have better friendships with them.
I found somebody who I love to be with. Somebody who slightly understands and actually cares. I cant imagine not having him around. I miss the fuck out of that boy, and he left for vacation today.
I am horrified at the thought of losing these people.
Everything I fought so hard to get back.
Is falling apart.
There is no way I can hold this together.
I'm trying to, with every bit of energy I have.
It's just not enough anymore.
I dont have the strength to do this over again.