Giving in to the gray ash, what would it feel like to sleep to death.....?
I came to the realization that maybe, JUST maybe I'm not meant to be in a relationship. Now I dont think its a bad thing, I mean I could always adopt a kid, or have a marriage like Michael Jackson. You know, pay her to stay with me and bare my children.*shrugs* Its not even that big of a deal. I cant stop thinking of the things I used to do with Emy, when I would hold her, when I would hug her from behind, when she would call me crying and I would comfort her, when we would hang out at the mall together.......when she would try and kill herself. I couldnt be there for her when she really needed me. I couldnt be there to say goodbye....I never say goodbye.....not when it counts, not when its the first and last true farewell.......adieu.