‘Til then you’ll hear it in my cry

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In a room draped in blue
I am thinking of you
I am tired, I can’t sleep
And for you I will weep

In a flash, you are gone
Yet around me life is calm
I cannot understand
Is this part of the plan?

I get cards with bouquets
But they can’t take your place
I have dreams about us
But I always wake up

I can ask all I please
I can beg down on my knees
For a reason, for a sign
But these answers I won’t find

And I will weep
Can you hear me?
Can’t you tell me why?

I’ll go on without you
And what’s left for me to do
But to stay where I am
In my world of pretend

And I won’t know until I die
If my faith was but a lie
‘Til then you’ll hear it in my cry
I didn’t want to say goodbye to you

my mom didn't want to tell me on the phone... they removed the anerism succesfully, but his heart stopped beating... and there was nothing they could do.

my parents came back to take us to Lansing tonight. We are all going to grandmas tonight. everyones staying the night. all my cousins. i think its a good idea, but it's going to be sad. when i see them, i don't know who they are going to see in me. who am i going to be, strong amanda, funny amanda, or that amanda they've never seen, the softer side. i'm glad i have my family through this, I love them so much.

I have to go finish packing, I'll be back... idk, sunday or saturday... I'm not sure...

God Bless everyone, and please hug those you love, you never know when the last time will be, at least do it for me.