i never thought I could be, who I am
if i bent like you said was best,
would that change a thing?
if i spent myself... or what's left
would you still leave me here?
you're so sorry about it all
now that it's over..
should i thank you for that dear?
you're so sorry about it all...
and i hope you'll always be.
i remember you best
hating all the boys who got to you
and all the things they took
that you'd kept for yourself
every car crash, every misstep, every word
you're so sorry about it all
now that it's over..
Should i thank you for that dear?
you're so sorry about it all...
and i hope you'll always be
always be.
i remember you best
hating all the boys who got to you
and all the things they took from you again...
it's all wrong...all wrong
I think Matt Nathanson wrote that song about me. okay not literally, but if he had, it fits perfectly with my little messed up problems.
didn't go to school today. i felt sick when i woke up, and realized i owed myself a morning off. I have to work tonight too, which I am not looking forward to. My intern will be fun, we are having a christmas party. i bought all the kids cards and candy canes, it's all i could afford. I bought the teacher a 10$ gift card for barns and nobles with a bookmark that says, "Why God Created Teachers". i think its cute.
anyways. helped out at the inner city christmas party last night. it was fun, so many people were there to help! i hadn't seem them since the summer! ryan and katie came, and chris was there and so was kelli! even jenni and amanda had signed up! it was so awesome! and course emily was there, but i already knew she would be! so it was so fun. these weird guys that spoke spanish kept trying to get their pictures taken with amanda and jenni. then they wanted one of all of us. we were like...okay. then some guy put his arms around me and jenni. i thought it was creepy.
then crazy j-lo. ha that was funny. this little monster girl was wearing these j-lo superstar clothes, and we were playing with her and she was insane. she would wipe hack sacks at us and grab on to peoples legs and wouldn't let go. if she came after ryan he would just scream. haha. it was great. then we all got to take home a bunch of hacky sacks that were left over. of course my dad and brother have a little war with the ones i brought home and now they are lost under the shelves and behind the couch. haha
k well i should jump in the shower now probably, and call mom, she wants me to check in. so yep. byes