just when you think it's better, it's not
someone hit my car last night. the driver's side door is caved in right where the handle and lock are, my key doesn't even go in. i tried the passenger side, and it unlocked for a second and then re-locked. so, my electrical system is fucked. the electrical system i just spent $500 repairing. and i'm thinking, okay, i can pick up more shifts at work to pay for it, but i'm overworked as it is. and how am i going to get home for thanksgiving? how am i going to pay for this? i don't know when i can get it towed to my mechanic. fuck. i hate how irresponsible people are. i hate that i go my entire life trying really hard (not always succeeding but trying) not to cause people harm, and people just get drunk, or don't care, or get destructive, and now someone who works a job and a half and has two majors and is trying her best to just make her life work, just get by... she gets shat on. it's hard not to take personally, even though it was just random destruction. why work so hard if everything is just going to slowly collapse like a flan in a cupboard?