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[obscure_kyoko]

Today I feel as if everything around me is a dream...one great big lie. I sit back and think if the people who say they love me really do... Do I even really love any of them? I often wonder do I even love myself. The answer to that is simple... no. If I can't love myself then why the fuck would you love me? If I can see all my faults then it's clear you can too. So don't say you fucking love me when you don't. Save your lies for someone who will believe them. Don't keep fucking playing games with me.

On another note...a poem I wrote awhile back. Enjoy...

I'm ready to watch my world die...
As long as you're here, in my arms...
The cuts, and scabs, and love letters...
Will all just turn to scars...

Why must you go? What can I do? What should I say?
I will never forget you... (Never let you go...)

As you tie the rope... My halo falls...
I paint my pain, with fists through walls...
All alone, how can this be?
You promised that you'd never leave...
Depression drugs... Addictive lust...
I swear I make such a perfect cut...
And as you jump, reaching out for death...
I close my eyes, and hope to forget...

Are you ready to watch your world die now?
My arms are cold, to match your heart...
Your mind is full of shit, and worms...
All my memories of you must be burned...

- Kyoko