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fuck you.

for wanting to drag me through this, because you haven't said yet, i love you, i know it's hard, how can i make it easier on you? go and be and do what you need and i'll let you know when the bullshit is over
because that is the best way
the least selfish way
a decided way of not trying to have everything, while simultaneously denying everything

fuck you.

i can't even have my day to myself because it gets fucked up over you. because you want it this way, and i don't know how else to keep it together when it's not even together

just because i love you

doesn't mean i can't say

fuck you

i hate you

despite how much you try to make things better, you can't change the root of the problem
and you're asking me to stand in that stinky shit with you, because you're stuck
stuck looking for something else besides me and you want me to help you in that
fuck you

you're selfish
because you're heart is hungry and uncertain

so is mine

who's stronger

is this about power

it has been

get in or get out

fuck you

i'm going to work
i hope i forget about you sometimes