No Heroes :(
I've been a clean freak lately. I can't function well unless everything that surrounds me is organized. I always spot flaws and immediately mend them. Recently, I have been obsessed with this, cleaning. Maybe because it is the only thing I have control over as of now. It is sad but that's the best I can do.
I think I have been too distant from the world for so long that when pain comes before me, I don't feel a thing at all.
But if I said I was okay, would that change anything? No, perhaps it wouldn't. And maybe I am not okay. That is why I am like this. But doing nothing is better I think. This is better, to let things be as they are, than to always try to mend them on my own.
Then later, I can say that I am okay and mean it.
I think I have been too distant from the world for so long that when pain comes before me, I don't feel a thing at all.
But if I said I was okay, would that change anything? No, perhaps it wouldn't. And maybe I am not okay. That is why I am like this. But doing nothing is better I think. This is better, to let things be as they are, than to always try to mend them on my own.
Then later, I can say that I am okay and mean it.