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It's really been an odd week emotionally.
Last weekend was awesome..hung out with the Schmitt fam. Did a tea with Jen and Jessica...shopped, had margaritas while the boys went and did a gangster tour in St. Paul. Then we all met up and went to Stillwater to celebrate Oktoberfest. Fun times. Sunday was full of more family, sports, dinner and old home movies of the 4 brothers.
I sit here now kind of sad. Why? I'm not really sure. Everything is fine really. There have been a few events that have just gotten me into a funk. I feel that in my relationship, I am always thinking of him first, but find that he may not always think of me first in certain decisions. It kind of hurt a little, and in turn I feel myself pulling away a little bit. I don't like that, but I don't know really what to do about it. I feel like our communication isn't always up to par lately... I have become what he might call "dramatic". That hurts as well... I can't help my feelings. As the days go on, we fall into a routine, and I start to worry that he might get bored with me, as I have begun to be bored of myself.
I am finally getting back to the gym... which is helping a ton. I am also going to stick with my arts administration degree for now. It will be a challenge, and I need that.
I also need a hug. :) Katherine, you are in my prayers and I hope your mom is ok. MJ, you can do this.. I have all the faith in you.
Last weekend was awesome..hung out with the Schmitt fam. Did a tea with Jen and Jessica...shopped, had margaritas while the boys went and did a gangster tour in St. Paul. Then we all met up and went to Stillwater to celebrate Oktoberfest. Fun times. Sunday was full of more family, sports, dinner and old home movies of the 4 brothers.
I sit here now kind of sad. Why? I'm not really sure. Everything is fine really. There have been a few events that have just gotten me into a funk. I feel that in my relationship, I am always thinking of him first, but find that he may not always think of me first in certain decisions. It kind of hurt a little, and in turn I feel myself pulling away a little bit. I don't like that, but I don't know really what to do about it. I feel like our communication isn't always up to par lately... I have become what he might call "dramatic". That hurts as well... I can't help my feelings. As the days go on, we fall into a routine, and I start to worry that he might get bored with me, as I have begun to be bored of myself.
I am finally getting back to the gym... which is helping a ton. I am also going to stick with my arts administration degree for now. It will be a challenge, and I need that.
I also need a hug. :) Katherine, you are in my prayers and I hope your mom is ok. MJ, you can do this.. I have all the faith in you.