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The events of the last two weeks are the reason why I was smart enough to be a loner in high school. I don't know what I am going to do. Fuck. I just want to go far away, and never return here. I don't want to do anything right now. I would normally be practicing recorder now, but I have no motivation to do even that. I have a fucking concert on Thursday and I'm in a panic. I'm going to embarrass myself. I would normally look forward to this, as I don't get to perform that often. I can't relax. I can't have time to myself. I can't even visit with friends. My computer died too, so I'm in the computer lab. I resign myself.