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So I just realized that I never updated about my spring break. It was amazing. My nneighbor had cute little twins and I spent $40 buying them gifts!!! I spent time with my brother and sister-in-law. My brother and I went snowmobiling which was AWESOME cause we had to much fun and we don't do a lot together anymore. I also found out that my sister is officially pregnant!!!!! The best part is that the baby is due on October 25...and my birthday is October 23!!!! I can't WAIT to be Aunt Sarah. I have been waiting for so long!
So I did a lot of work around my house to help out my mom and I also helped her with some school stuff. I really miss her right now. Possibly a huge reason why I am so depressed.
So that was pretty much all I did. I kept very busy and wish I could have relaxed more, but oh well. I really don't want to be back here. I was making reeds on Sunday afternoon before I came back and realized how much I hated making reeds and I just sat there crying. Yes...I know...pretty sad, but I couldn't help it. I have realized that my heart really isn't into anything anymore. Music is so much work and I keep failing at it and I can't keep up with the school work sometimes. The two things that motivated me were keeping my GPA up and music. It's scary to realize that I have no motivation in my life right now. My heart really doesn't lie anywhere. I feel like I am in limbo. I hate this feeling so much, but I am not sure what to do to change it. There is one thing that made me incredibly happy the week before spring break. Maybe that will work again...who knows...
On top of all that...I am sick. Ugh...I am leaving tomorrow and I can't WAIT!
So I did a lot of work around my house to help out my mom and I also helped her with some school stuff. I really miss her right now. Possibly a huge reason why I am so depressed.
So that was pretty much all I did. I kept very busy and wish I could have relaxed more, but oh well. I really don't want to be back here. I was making reeds on Sunday afternoon before I came back and realized how much I hated making reeds and I just sat there crying. Yes...I know...pretty sad, but I couldn't help it. I have realized that my heart really isn't into anything anymore. Music is so much work and I keep failing at it and I can't keep up with the school work sometimes. The two things that motivated me were keeping my GPA up and music. It's scary to realize that I have no motivation in my life right now. My heart really doesn't lie anywhere. I feel like I am in limbo. I hate this feeling so much, but I am not sure what to do to change it. There is one thing that made me incredibly happy the week before spring break. Maybe that will work again...who knows...
On top of all that...I am sick. Ugh...I am leaving tomorrow and I can't WAIT!