What is a friend...
I was tossing and turning for quite some time last night trying to figure out what a friend truly is. I have been hurt by soooo many of the people I considered my close friends lately that I am not sure what a friend is anymore. Yes, it is totally normal for friends to fight or hurt one another, but a friend will always apologize. Maybe I am the bad guy here. Maybe I hurt them and never apologized...but I didn't think so. I would take a bullet for any one of my friends because I hold each of them so close to my heart. Yes, I know that I am very busy with school so I don't have very much time to just hang out with my friends, but that does NOT mean that if anyone of them needed me I wouldn't be there for them in a heartbeat, because I definetly would.
Out of all the people who have hurt me in some way only a couple of them apologized. This is because those people knew me so well that they knew when I wsa hurting. I didn't need to make a huge deal out of it. Maybe a lot of people haven't apologized because they don't know how much they hurt me. Should I be making a huge deal out of it? I don't like to because I am not a huge dramatic person and someone who makes a huge deal out of thigns is a drama queen. I really don't want to be like that. I would rather endure the hurt, cry it all out when it gets to be too much, and then move on with my life. However, that still doesn't help the fact that some of my so called friends crap on me and that breaks my heart...
I would just like to take this poortunity to tell Tiffany that I love her and she is the greatest person EVER! After things got to be to much last night I just needed to cry. I got back to my room after Godspell and she sent me a message saying that she loved me. Wow...did I ever need that more than anyone can imagine right then! She then came down to my room and asked if I was alright and I burst into tears. She gave me a hug as I spilled everything to her and then told me that she loved me and doesn't know what she would do without me. That absolutly made my night. Someone in the world cared and it is so nice to know that my friendship is important to someone and that I am needed. Thank you so much Tiffany! That was THE GREATEST thing anyone could have said to me last night! I love you!!!!!!
Out of all the people who have hurt me in some way only a couple of them apologized. This is because those people knew me so well that they knew when I wsa hurting. I didn't need to make a huge deal out of it. Maybe a lot of people haven't apologized because they don't know how much they hurt me. Should I be making a huge deal out of it? I don't like to because I am not a huge dramatic person and someone who makes a huge deal out of thigns is a drama queen. I really don't want to be like that. I would rather endure the hurt, cry it all out when it gets to be too much, and then move on with my life. However, that still doesn't help the fact that some of my so called friends crap on me and that breaks my heart...
I would just like to take this poortunity to tell Tiffany that I love her and she is the greatest person EVER! After things got to be to much last night I just needed to cry. I got back to my room after Godspell and she sent me a message saying that she loved me. Wow...did I ever need that more than anyone can imagine right then! She then came down to my room and asked if I was alright and I burst into tears. She gave me a hug as I spilled everything to her and then told me that she loved me and doesn't know what she would do without me. That absolutly made my night. Someone in the world cared and it is so nice to know that my friendship is important to someone and that I am needed. Thank you so much Tiffany! That was THE GREATEST thing anyone could have said to me last night! I love you!!!!!!