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Dear readers and friends,
So this is basically my explanation to my unwanted, prolonged hiatus. A.k.a a rant as well. *laughs* anyway, I want to sincerely apologize for disappearing on you guys! *hugs* I really did miss you. Now that my life is stable, well basically stable, I hope to start updating regularly. I have a new Kyumin out, a Eunhae, and I will be posting the YeWook side story soon as well. I just haven’t decided if I want to post if before or after I update the next chapter. I have quite a few chapters actually. But they are out of chronological order or are missing chapters in between so please wait for me and bear with me!!! :D
Ok, so here it goes… it might not sound like much, but I neededto get away from things! Lol it was a lot for me to handle! Lol (hence the angsty Kyumin I started lol)
1) So basically I was with this guy for five years we planned to get married. I told him I wanted to study abroad for the last 3 threes and every time he asked me not to go so I didn’t. Well this year I really really wanted to go. I told him I was going if I t were at all possible. I asked him to support me. But no. He said if I did that then he wanted to break up (same as every time) And I said that that wasn’t fair that I had supported him through four career changes as well as jobs on the road. So then while he was on a jobsite he called to say he didn’t think he loved me anymore. He wanted to think. I told him alright. Think about it and let me know. A week passed by and then he called ... he just said he loved me and wasn't in love with me .. I said alright. And I struggled to make peace with it. Then he came back and said that he loved me and didn’t want to be alone or away from me. He then asked what I wanted to do. I said I still wanted to go to Japan and that I wanted us to work on our relationship, not worry about a tittle or anything. Then he said that we just weren't compatible anymore and that he didn’t want to be with me. ... i supported him through everything ... 4 career changes, i moved to be with him and gave up the colleges i wanted to go to. Then i told him i was looking at colleges for my transfer so i could finish my school and there was a summer program in Korea i was thinking of going to for a month and he suddenly didn't love me anymore ... even though i supported him ... and i know ... his career now envolves him being on the road and i supported him, even though he travelled i still wished for his happiness .. still do .. *sighs* it is just hard .. i felt very unloveable ... and it hurt ... But I am a lot bettr now. Actually I am a lot happier. He got a new girl and realized that the single life wasn’t as amazing as he wanted it to be. He said he loved me and wanted me back. But I am happy now and I am moving on. Lol (that is the very basic of it.)
2) At the time I felt alone. Because none of my “friends” had time for me. Then I made an amazing friend(s) that helped me put a lot and it also helped me realize who my true friends are!! Though I was a little sad at the time I feel relieved and happy now!
3) Anyway I moved to be with him, then when we broke up I needed to move so I lived with my boss for a little while. She is really nice. Now I have my own place. I have made many many new friends and I love it. I don’t feel stressed and I am following my dreams.
4) I just have yet to switch over my internet and since the new term for school has started I need to get my things organized and ready. Then I needed to start filling out scholarships and such for study abroad in Japan. Lol But I am getting there!! Wish me luck!! Please!! I need these!! Lol
5) Wish me luch on the scholarships guys!! I need to still find a homestay family!!!! >< lol I am so nervous I hope I get these!!! :D
So basically sorry guys, life got in the way *shrugs* but I am back!! :D If you read all of this thank you and sorry I was gone so long!! I have read all of the comments and I absolutely adore and love you guys!! Thank you so much!! When I was struggling you huys made me smile and made my day!! *hugs tight* thank you!! I will try to reply as soon as I am organized!! For now … enjoy the updates please!!! Remember to comment … comments are what make my day and let me know you read it!! *glomps*
I I hope to update regu;arly! Also I am thinking of doing a poll on the stories I am writing to see which one is the most popular and I will update that one the most frequently lol :D Anyway, thank you guys so much for listening and responding to me being a baby!!!
Love you!!!
Heather
So this is basically my explanation to my unwanted, prolonged hiatus. A.k.a a rant as well. *laughs* anyway, I want to sincerely apologize for disappearing on you guys! *hugs* I really did miss you. Now that my life is stable, well basically stable, I hope to start updating regularly. I have a new Kyumin out, a Eunhae, and I will be posting the YeWook side story soon as well. I just haven’t decided if I want to post if before or after I update the next chapter. I have quite a few chapters actually. But they are out of chronological order or are missing chapters in between so please wait for me and bear with me!!! :D
Ok, so here it goes… it might not sound like much, but I neededto get away from things! Lol it was a lot for me to handle! Lol (hence the angsty Kyumin I started lol)
1) So basically I was with this guy for five years we planned to get married. I told him I wanted to study abroad for the last 3 threes and every time he asked me not to go so I didn’t. Well this year I really really wanted to go. I told him I was going if I t were at all possible. I asked him to support me. But no. He said if I did that then he wanted to break up (same as every time) And I said that that wasn’t fair that I had supported him through four career changes as well as jobs on the road. So then while he was on a jobsite he called to say he didn’t think he loved me anymore. He wanted to think. I told him alright. Think about it and let me know. A week passed by and then he called ... he just said he loved me and wasn't in love with me .. I said alright. And I struggled to make peace with it. Then he came back and said that he loved me and didn’t want to be alone or away from me. He then asked what I wanted to do. I said I still wanted to go to Japan and that I wanted us to work on our relationship, not worry about a tittle or anything. Then he said that we just weren't compatible anymore and that he didn’t want to be with me. ... i supported him through everything ... 4 career changes, i moved to be with him and gave up the colleges i wanted to go to. Then i told him i was looking at colleges for my transfer so i could finish my school and there was a summer program in Korea i was thinking of going to for a month and he suddenly didn't love me anymore ... even though i supported him ... and i know ... his career now envolves him being on the road and i supported him, even though he travelled i still wished for his happiness .. still do .. *sighs* it is just hard .. i felt very unloveable ... and it hurt ... But I am a lot bettr now. Actually I am a lot happier. He got a new girl and realized that the single life wasn’t as amazing as he wanted it to be. He said he loved me and wanted me back. But I am happy now and I am moving on. Lol (that is the very basic of it.)
2) At the time I felt alone. Because none of my “friends” had time for me. Then I made an amazing friend(s) that helped me put a lot and it also helped me realize who my true friends are!! Though I was a little sad at the time I feel relieved and happy now!
3) Anyway I moved to be with him, then when we broke up I needed to move so I lived with my boss for a little while. She is really nice. Now I have my own place. I have made many many new friends and I love it. I don’t feel stressed and I am following my dreams.
4) I just have yet to switch over my internet and since the new term for school has started I need to get my things organized and ready. Then I needed to start filling out scholarships and such for study abroad in Japan. Lol But I am getting there!! Wish me luck!! Please!! I need these!! Lol
5) Wish me luch on the scholarships guys!! I need to still find a homestay family!!!! >< lol I am so nervous I hope I get these!!! :D
So basically sorry guys, life got in the way *shrugs* but I am back!! :D If you read all of this thank you and sorry I was gone so long!! I have read all of the comments and I absolutely adore and love you guys!! Thank you so much!! When I was struggling you huys made me smile and made my day!! *hugs tight* thank you!! I will try to reply as soon as I am organized!! For now … enjoy the updates please!!! Remember to comment … comments are what make my day and let me know you read it!! *glomps*
I I hope to update regu;arly! Also I am thinking of doing a poll on the stories I am writing to see which one is the most popular and I will update that one the most frequently lol :D Anyway, thank you guys so much for listening and responding to me being a baby!!!
Love you!!!
Heather