too much drama for anybody's momma
so yeah...i have learned to deal with the puking and feeling like i am gonna puke 20/7 (i left out the four hours that i sleep sort of soundly )and using the restroom one billion times a day....and i have even agreed to go to the up the butt doctor at a hospital that is going to perform inhumane tests upon my broken body to put me on MORE medication that doesn't work....so yeah i have accepted all of that. is it right? NO. is it fair? NO. but what is? i am 24 years old and i live like a prisoner because of my body. but you know what that isn't even my issue today...like i said i just go through the motions....
so yeah....the ISSUE at hand is my living/working situation...everyone has always said that i have had a "cush" job....and i have....but as of this morning i may not have a home or a job thanks to the government and brandy. i am scared. they wiped out the bankaccount yesterday. it is like with the opening of an envelope my whole world is falling apart....
my father's solution: move back to henderson this moment and bring any of my possessions of any value being that they could come in at any moment... and we all know i am all over that....
brandy's solution: pretend it doesn't exisit...go to the pottery barn and buy more curtains! and then get wasted...
my solution is still pending....basically the ONLY reason i have remained in louisville is my job. i despise the university...i hate derby and i would feel blessed if i never saw a snow flake again. blake and i have been making plans...and now all those plans are going to change...
i am a nervous/anxious person anyway...so this has sent me totally for a loop...i feel like alice only not in wonderland....spiraling down an endless tube to shit....
i think this is a wake up call that i have "snoozed" one too many times...the timing could not be worse. i wish i was five and could just go hide under my bed...but the government might want that too..so
this is such bullshit with a capital B!
so yeah....the ISSUE at hand is my living/working situation...everyone has always said that i have had a "cush" job....and i have....but as of this morning i may not have a home or a job thanks to the government and brandy. i am scared. they wiped out the bankaccount yesterday. it is like with the opening of an envelope my whole world is falling apart....
my father's solution: move back to henderson this moment and bring any of my possessions of any value being that they could come in at any moment... and we all know i am all over that....
brandy's solution: pretend it doesn't exisit...go to the pottery barn and buy more curtains! and then get wasted...
my solution is still pending....basically the ONLY reason i have remained in louisville is my job. i despise the university...i hate derby and i would feel blessed if i never saw a snow flake again. blake and i have been making plans...and now all those plans are going to change...
i am a nervous/anxious person anyway...so this has sent me totally for a loop...i feel like alice only not in wonderland....spiraling down an endless tube to shit....
i think this is a wake up call that i have "snoozed" one too many times...the timing could not be worse. i wish i was five and could just go hide under my bed...but the government might want that too..so
this is such bullshit with a capital B!