headache
My mouth feels like it's full of that latexy dental moulding stuff.
So, I'm still with him. I'm so lame I can't even keep standing up for what I want. I cave in to guilt trips. I hate it!
Gave up a job and gaming to make him happy, I'm fucking depressed, but whatever. Right?!
We're losing our car, due to the no job issue.
He thought I was having an affair with someone online...LOL (sorry it's just a funny thought to me)
Inside my head I'm constantly screaming, and fighting back my urges to go completely nuts on his ass.
I'm in a manic episode, have been for the past 6 days, wonder how long it'll last. Usually they're short lived, which sucks because I hate being depressive. In a manic episode I can actually get some things done as long as I'm not sidetracked! I'm a bigger bitch though, very short and edgy. I'LL BITE YOUR FUCKING HEAD OFF, for no reason apparently. I'm also worried that slipping back into a depressive episode will lead to major drama with James.
It's harder to sleep during a manic episode, giving me more headaches and racing heart. Also feels like my thoughts are racey too, I can do a task, but I'm easily distracted. :(
In all I'm beginning to think my Bi-polar disorder is getting worse. Most likely this is due to lack of medication and therapy.
So, I'm still with him. I'm so lame I can't even keep standing up for what I want. I cave in to guilt trips. I hate it!
Gave up a job and gaming to make him happy, I'm fucking depressed, but whatever. Right?!
We're losing our car, due to the no job issue.
He thought I was having an affair with someone online...LOL (sorry it's just a funny thought to me)
Inside my head I'm constantly screaming, and fighting back my urges to go completely nuts on his ass.
I'm in a manic episode, have been for the past 6 days, wonder how long it'll last. Usually they're short lived, which sucks because I hate being depressive. In a manic episode I can actually get some things done as long as I'm not sidetracked! I'm a bigger bitch though, very short and edgy. I'LL BITE YOUR FUCKING HEAD OFF, for no reason apparently. I'm also worried that slipping back into a depressive episode will lead to major drama with James.
It's harder to sleep during a manic episode, giving me more headaches and racing heart. Also feels like my thoughts are racey too, I can do a task, but I'm easily distracted. :(
In all I'm beginning to think my Bi-polar disorder is getting worse. Most likely this is due to lack of medication and therapy.