Ahoy
Things aren't great. I'd like to say so, but it's just not true. Things probably aren't as bad as I'm about to claim either.
I would rather my boyfriend die then me admit that I just don't want to be with him anymore. I care about him deeply but I'm not happy in this relationship and I feel like the things he has done aren't good enough reasons to leave him.
I don't really want him to die but it'd be so much easier if he would break up with me. I'm not sure where I'd go probably back to mom's for a bit then get my own place.
I'm not in love with anyone else or anything like that. I just need time to heal from my horrid marriage and I need to get myself together because I'm hurting both of us dragging my mental state through this sluggish mess. I go absolutely batty on him and nothing could be wrong when it happens. It feels like my world is crashing when I do this though and I always say I want out of the relationship and I don't love him as much etc. But he keeps arguing that I'm just confused and it makes me feel bad. There you have this guy who is still in love with you(i think) and he's begging you to love him back and I just give in and say ok. I do love him but it's so entirely different than his love for me.
What the hell am I supposed to do?! I know it's only worse if I wait for a long time before I do anything about it, but when I try he argues about it and guilts me into staying.
I would rather my boyfriend die then me admit that I just don't want to be with him anymore. I care about him deeply but I'm not happy in this relationship and I feel like the things he has done aren't good enough reasons to leave him.
I don't really want him to die but it'd be so much easier if he would break up with me. I'm not sure where I'd go probably back to mom's for a bit then get my own place.
I'm not in love with anyone else or anything like that. I just need time to heal from my horrid marriage and I need to get myself together because I'm hurting both of us dragging my mental state through this sluggish mess. I go absolutely batty on him and nothing could be wrong when it happens. It feels like my world is crashing when I do this though and I always say I want out of the relationship and I don't love him as much etc. But he keeps arguing that I'm just confused and it makes me feel bad. There you have this guy who is still in love with you(i think) and he's begging you to love him back and I just give in and say ok. I do love him but it's so entirely different than his love for me.
What the hell am I supposed to do?! I know it's only worse if I wait for a long time before I do anything about it, but when I try he argues about it and guilts me into staying.