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Does anyone ever think about how one seems to the world and how that relates to how you are/how you define yourself/how you are defined? Does anyone ever wonder about defining oneself?
You know sometimes I think about completely letting go and doing everything I want without thinking twice. I've never lived that way before(untill recently for the most part.) It's almost scary in a way because I've grown up always thinking about what I would seem like to other people, being generally indifferent, or not being mindful of what I actually wanted. No one ever really asked me what I wanted when it came to my own life, only about stuff that I really didn't give a shit about. And no one really taught me to know what I want because I've always wanted what everybody else wanted when really that wasn't what I actually wanted.... if that stupid logic can actually make sense to anyone?
You know sometimes I think about completely letting go and doing everything I want without thinking twice. I've never lived that way before(untill recently for the most part.) It's almost scary in a way because I've grown up always thinking about what I would seem like to other people, being generally indifferent, or not being mindful of what I actually wanted. No one ever really asked me what I wanted when it came to my own life, only about stuff that I really didn't give a shit about. And no one really taught me to know what I want because I've always wanted what everybody else wanted when really that wasn't what I actually wanted.... if that stupid logic can actually make sense to anyone?