My therapy, Psychotherapy
Now why is there no option to mention what you're eating here? Just; Tags,Mood,Location,Music? Bah
I have many things to update through the past weeks happenings...
Listing things such as L.A., Moving, Housing, Foodstamps, Jpop Shop USA, Customers, Georgia, Fuck ups, People, Health, Family or lack, University, Schooling, thereof, Anime Conventions, ( Read more... )
It's very VERY hard to let go, but once you find someone who can put the bandages on your emotional wounds, who will help put you in a safe haven emotional state.. you'll find that it's easier to heal. It's easier to look back and remember it like there was a reason you did all that with her. I know sheila hates me, i know andi does too..But i know that's just a part of life, we make our mistakes -- and we cannot ever plan who we ever are attracted to. The games they play to become ours is almost as bad as the ones they play to remove themselves from our grip.
Emotional greiveance over being sick, that's something i can't help with personally because over the last say 20 years, i've not been deathly sick. Tonsilitis did scare the shit fucking pis-ant hell out of me, but it was nowhere near as bad as what you or rob are going through..Yea i've fucked up my back once or twice but within a week if i take care of it it'll go back to an OK state where it's not hurtin again. But i suppose the idea that you can't do anything you once did.. that you can't sing your heart out, so even though the world cannot hear you-- it'll ring throughout your spirit and soul to the point those who need to hear it can.
As for moving to LA, i agree completley on what you say.. i've never liked just having normal hair.. and i've had constant discussions with my mother on what's normal, and why i do weird things. Minnesota is about as bad as georgia in that aspect -- we're talking if you have crazy hair.. it's looked at as like you're only willing to work at hot topic. (Shut up, i was for a while XD) But aside from that, being abnormal to society.. being what i am now, would disturb the peace of societal living in minnesota. I highly doubt i'd want to transition there, despite the good medical history with hospitals and doctors.
lol tell you the truth.. maria wants to follow me.
But this comment box isn't about me tonight is it :P
You need to try, and i know coming from me this is really odd and like flip side of a coin -- but you need to start trying to take care of yourself better mentally. It's really hard i know, or maybe i dont know i dont know if i really know -- because i'm the baby of the group somewhat.
But you need to try and look at everything head on, constructivley. Things cannot bring you down, you are the best there is at what you do... and what you do is beautiful. (To mimick a wolverine statement, and make it towards you :P) ..
Don't let others bring you down because you do not match what their brain is throwing at them. Do not let them bring you down, they are naive, stupid and uninformed.
..most of all...
people care about you enough that we can support you, if we need to pull out our mental crutches for you, and support you until you heal so be it.
.. Well that's mentally speaking for me really -- i dont want to put words in our other friends mouths *laughs* -- but i'm sure you will find equally as wonderful words coming from others.
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