School, life, careers = stresss
So lately life has been stressful and confusing. I'm soo glad that I quit Creekside and started working at Starbucks, but there's so much to learn in my training that I feel like I'll never remember it all! At least I've already saved a shitload of money from getting a discount. And i don't know how the hell I will work at 5:15 in the morning next Saturday and Sunday...there goes my weekend :(.
I'm fucked in school at the moment, I have failed Algebra for the third time (first time in college, twice in high school). My teacher thought it'd be best for me to drop it and retake it next semester, so when I went to drop I found out it's too late and now I'm stuck with an F. That will look good on my GPA. Lately I've just felt like a fucking failure, I don't even know what I want to major in, let alone persue for a career. If I don't find one and get a goal straight I don't know how I'll stay on track at the JC. I took a counseling class that is supposed to help me figure it out, but I just can't see myself doing any of the jobs that came from my personality quizzes. It sucks that all of the counseling appts. are all full for the rest of the semester too, so I can't get any help figuring this all out for a while.
Of course my parents are always stressing me out as well, especially my mom. She still treats me like a child no matter how many years I've fought with her about how she needs to change. Nothing ever results from it except me feeling more like shit. I need a change, she said a while ago that they'd consider letting me try living on my own, but I know that's a lie. Something needs to change though, I can't take it anymore...but I've said that for years. They've deprived me of so much shit and sheltered me so much, I can't get over that. This year is my "year of change" so gradually I'm starting to get better, but not nearly as fast as I want to.
God dammit I feel like I just need to go to a party and get drunk and feel like a real college student.
I'm fucked in school at the moment, I have failed Algebra for the third time (first time in college, twice in high school). My teacher thought it'd be best for me to drop it and retake it next semester, so when I went to drop I found out it's too late and now I'm stuck with an F. That will look good on my GPA. Lately I've just felt like a fucking failure, I don't even know what I want to major in, let alone persue for a career. If I don't find one and get a goal straight I don't know how I'll stay on track at the JC. I took a counseling class that is supposed to help me figure it out, but I just can't see myself doing any of the jobs that came from my personality quizzes. It sucks that all of the counseling appts. are all full for the rest of the semester too, so I can't get any help figuring this all out for a while.
Of course my parents are always stressing me out as well, especially my mom. She still treats me like a child no matter how many years I've fought with her about how she needs to change. Nothing ever results from it except me feeling more like shit. I need a change, she said a while ago that they'd consider letting me try living on my own, but I know that's a lie. Something needs to change though, I can't take it anymore...but I've said that for years. They've deprived me of so much shit and sheltered me so much, I can't get over that. This year is my "year of change" so gradually I'm starting to get better, but not nearly as fast as I want to.
God dammit I feel like I just need to go to a party and get drunk and feel like a real college student.