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Fuck this. I don't think anyone realizes that I have been working my ass off trying to find a job. Applying at every piece of shit fast food place I can find just so I can keep my fucking car. And then they go and make up stupid ass ultimatums about when I can and can't have my car.
I just really feel like shit right now. No one can see that I am working to try and find a job. I am not going out and partying or sneaking around or doing what everyone else is doing. I am sitting at home by myself with no one filling out applications and enduring self fucking pity while I try and find a job.
Not to mention stressing about everything else in the fucking world. I hate money. I really do.
And no one in my family gets it. Everything is so easy for them and even if something is somewhat hard, they have a million other people there to help them. None of them give a shit about what I want.
Grandma tells me she wants me to have fun because it's summer. Well you can't say something like that about 30 minutes after saying that I need to get up early tomorrow and find a job. It's not a two way street. It's a one-way ticket to hell.
I just really feel like shit right now. No one can see that I am working to try and find a job. I am not going out and partying or sneaking around or doing what everyone else is doing. I am sitting at home by myself with no one filling out applications and enduring self fucking pity while I try and find a job.
Not to mention stressing about everything else in the fucking world. I hate money. I really do.
And no one in my family gets it. Everything is so easy for them and even if something is somewhat hard, they have a million other people there to help them. None of them give a shit about what I want.
Grandma tells me she wants me to have fun because it's summer. Well you can't say something like that about 30 minutes after saying that I need to get up early tomorrow and find a job. It's not a two way street. It's a one-way ticket to hell.