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So there is a boy... and we will call him J... he likes me I like him. He lives in a city away from me. He is a swinger. He has other boy/girl toys. He claims I am not one of these toys.
There is another boy, we will call him B... I am interested in him, he thinks I am great (his words). He also lives in a city away from me (there are no boys in Corvallis~!) I am kissing with B... we may be doing more in the near future. J knows of B, B knows of J. I know of all J's thangs... I am assuming they know/will know of me. J is a swinger NOT a polyamourous person. B... I dont think he dates much. Or doesnt anything with anyone much. J is a punk rocker. He is kinda dirty and has a fuzzy beerish like gut nut works out everyday... has a job, makes me feel.... like I am in some other galaxy. Sex is wonderful. He makes me laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh. He is smart, educated, and also I think has had a harder time perhaps with "growing up", he is 25. B is a square. Cute and suppppper suppppppper nice. When we kiss its like plowing into a wall. Its kinda freaky... I just think he is inexperienced...And well J... I think he is experienced but he is also with a few people at one time... uhm... hmm...I am not sure how I feel about B. He is kind and I find him attractive.. and MYSELF ATTRACTED TO HIM... since the moment I met/saw him I feel drawn to him. I like that he is dorky and an innocent. He is 21. Grew up in a nice home on the beach and travels a lot. He also has a job and goes to college.
I am hanging out with B on Friday and maybe Friday night dependent on how the day goes. I wont see J except at a punk show put on my his friends (I met him through said friends), where he will be there with a girl from outta town... who she made him promise not to kiss any other girl while she visits (I dont blame her)and they will be at the show Sat. I told J I wanted to see him when he asked if I would prefer him and her not to go to the show. I also told him I wouldnt feel comfortable if I watched them get the mac daddy on in front of me. Haha so now he has promised her, A, to not kiss any other girls and told me, C, that he wouldnt kiss A at the show. HAHA. Now B may be there with me at the show... dependent upon Fri. B I met through my cousin... so even if he did go to the show with us I am not comfy making squishy face in front of my cousin with his friend until I think that B is a more permanent swinging thing in my life. J is bummed about not being able to be with me. I told him its the last time I am going to his city for probably a month or two. He said he would come to me some weekend then. And he wants to make it up to me for not being with me this trip. I told him it better involve flowers (its an ongoing joke between us).
When I am with J its like I have known him forever. But maybe I have because I have been with punkers before... though I swore them off and its been about 8 yrs since I last dated one. I am "through" with the tattoos/kill cops/language/ hardcore/ extreme lifestyle. But I REALLY fancy J for who he is. Not what he appears to be.
When I am with B its nice too. But I am having trouble connecting with him as easily. Other then smashing faces (which its literally like that and I have to constantly say "slow down" and he gets a lil bent outta shape each time meh). I am attracted to B's clean cut lifestyle.
Opinions?
Ladies.
Anyone?
Well for now. I am gonna sleep with J and continue to text message all night long the cutest sweetest things. And with B I will feel out the waters more. Maybe we just need to sleep together and get that over with... haha oh thats bad. But sounds like fun! maybe. So I am just gonna stay on swinging. I kinda am blowing of LTR's as I am moving in the summer. And these boys will STILL NOT be living in the same town as me when I move. So no LTR until I meet that special someone who lives in my state/city!
There is another boy, we will call him B... I am interested in him, he thinks I am great (his words). He also lives in a city away from me (there are no boys in Corvallis~!) I am kissing with B... we may be doing more in the near future. J knows of B, B knows of J. I know of all J's thangs... I am assuming they know/will know of me. J is a swinger NOT a polyamourous person. B... I dont think he dates much. Or doesnt anything with anyone much. J is a punk rocker. He is kinda dirty and has a fuzzy beerish like gut nut works out everyday... has a job, makes me feel.... like I am in some other galaxy. Sex is wonderful. He makes me laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh. He is smart, educated, and also I think has had a harder time perhaps with "growing up", he is 25. B is a square. Cute and suppppper suppppppper nice. When we kiss its like plowing into a wall. Its kinda freaky... I just think he is inexperienced...And well J... I think he is experienced but he is also with a few people at one time... uhm... hmm...I am not sure how I feel about B. He is kind and I find him attractive.. and MYSELF ATTRACTED TO HIM... since the moment I met/saw him I feel drawn to him. I like that he is dorky and an innocent. He is 21. Grew up in a nice home on the beach and travels a lot. He also has a job and goes to college.
I am hanging out with B on Friday and maybe Friday night dependent on how the day goes. I wont see J except at a punk show put on my his friends (I met him through said friends), where he will be there with a girl from outta town... who she made him promise not to kiss any other girl while she visits (I dont blame her)and they will be at the show Sat. I told J I wanted to see him when he asked if I would prefer him and her not to go to the show. I also told him I wouldnt feel comfortable if I watched them get the mac daddy on in front of me. Haha so now he has promised her, A, to not kiss any other girls and told me, C, that he wouldnt kiss A at the show. HAHA. Now B may be there with me at the show... dependent upon Fri. B I met through my cousin... so even if he did go to the show with us I am not comfy making squishy face in front of my cousin with his friend until I think that B is a more permanent swinging thing in my life. J is bummed about not being able to be with me. I told him its the last time I am going to his city for probably a month or two. He said he would come to me some weekend then. And he wants to make it up to me for not being with me this trip. I told him it better involve flowers (its an ongoing joke between us).
When I am with J its like I have known him forever. But maybe I have because I have been with punkers before... though I swore them off and its been about 8 yrs since I last dated one. I am "through" with the tattoos/kill cops/language/ hardcore/ extreme lifestyle. But I REALLY fancy J for who he is. Not what he appears to be.
When I am with B its nice too. But I am having trouble connecting with him as easily. Other then smashing faces (which its literally like that and I have to constantly say "slow down" and he gets a lil bent outta shape each time meh). I am attracted to B's clean cut lifestyle.
Opinions?
Ladies.
Anyone?
Well for now. I am gonna sleep with J and continue to text message all night long the cutest sweetest things. And with B I will feel out the waters more. Maybe we just need to sleep together and get that over with... haha oh thats bad. But sounds like fun! maybe. So I am just gonna stay on swinging. I kinda am blowing of LTR's as I am moving in the summer. And these boys will STILL NOT be living in the same town as me when I move. So no LTR until I meet that special someone who lives in my state/city!