29 minutes left to go....it warns
So I am at the library computer as it it much FASTER then the one at home... that only works half the time....
All has been well enough.
I sing and dance, and went nude into the ocean, and howled at the moon, next to a bon fire... and made out with a boy on the top of a sand dune and not magically sliding down.. as we locked lips...
and I seeing this boy often enough now... locking lips even more the seeing each other... and the most awesome love making... we both just start laughing in the middle of it.. cause its so just.... yea/ cant think of it.. cause I just start floating away into space... sigh...
I got my bike fix, the one Nate gave me ions ago0 B4 I left for Australia....
AnD now I have my OWN bike... one less thing I am not getting from someone else...
I may move in with my almost aunt. And do odd jobs for their mom... like clean her house and maybe be a companion....
She tried to kill herself... she doesnt even remember it. She took a whole bottle of pills... she gets super sad sometimes... and we are all worried for her safety. She has to live at the psycheward deems the hospital until they think she is safe on her own.
no one knows if she actually meant to take the pills or not.. well she takes them, and the pills are known for making peeps go nutty..... thats sad, so I hope she gets better.
I am seeing a boy who is studying to be a nurse... I am going to study (just for a short term reason) how to be a cna 1 and perhaps a cna 2.... when we make love sometimes we start talking anatomy. its kinky nerdy. I love it...
well see I can stop thinkign about it...
anyhow...
uhm something else something else else else....
23 mins left...
I havent been sick again since the ER visit in Aug... so that GREAT.. and I am on yucky meds... which I forgot to take this morning... now just remembered... I will take it when I am at home...
hmm...
The govt gave me food stamps. Now I can eat. and more properly as I am restricted more foods since the last ER trip....
I think I lost some weight.. plus the biking and longtern love lust moments... I hope to trim down.... and gain some muscle at the same time... we'll see... lol
I need to make it to PDX so I can give Tisa her photos- copies.. and something else. Kinda a gift, but not exactly from me... intrigued yet?
I am reading Dante's Inferno... to see what was in Charlottas head when she went completely crazy.
next I will read Atlas Shrug as it is my dads and mums favorite.
And I will read teh Odyssey... because I should and I never have.
And I am making art... and yoga... and friends....
And I dance... and play... and go on daily walks and rides.... and I think I am in love with life...
though things still make me sad. Like Chris... or the happenstance of Chris and I.
Its like dealing with a death.... makes me twitch and sneeze a little....
thats my life now.
Oh and I am going crazy looking for the story I wrote about "Ginny".. if any of you have a copy of it in your email... from this last April time... PLEASE email me it.
Thanks.
loves.
CADE
17 mins left
All has been well enough.
I sing and dance, and went nude into the ocean, and howled at the moon, next to a bon fire... and made out with a boy on the top of a sand dune and not magically sliding down.. as we locked lips...
and I seeing this boy often enough now... locking lips even more the seeing each other... and the most awesome love making... we both just start laughing in the middle of it.. cause its so just.... yea/ cant think of it.. cause I just start floating away into space... sigh...
I got my bike fix, the one Nate gave me ions ago0 B4 I left for Australia....
AnD now I have my OWN bike... one less thing I am not getting from someone else...
I may move in with my almost aunt. And do odd jobs for their mom... like clean her house and maybe be a companion....
She tried to kill herself... she doesnt even remember it. She took a whole bottle of pills... she gets super sad sometimes... and we are all worried for her safety. She has to live at the psycheward deems the hospital until they think she is safe on her own.
no one knows if she actually meant to take the pills or not.. well she takes them, and the pills are known for making peeps go nutty..... thats sad, so I hope she gets better.
I am seeing a boy who is studying to be a nurse... I am going to study (just for a short term reason) how to be a cna 1 and perhaps a cna 2.... when we make love sometimes we start talking anatomy. its kinky nerdy. I love it...
well see I can stop thinkign about it...
anyhow...
uhm something else something else else else....
23 mins left...
I havent been sick again since the ER visit in Aug... so that GREAT.. and I am on yucky meds... which I forgot to take this morning... now just remembered... I will take it when I am at home...
hmm...
The govt gave me food stamps. Now I can eat. and more properly as I am restricted more foods since the last ER trip....
I think I lost some weight.. plus the biking and longtern love lust moments... I hope to trim down.... and gain some muscle at the same time... we'll see... lol
I need to make it to PDX so I can give Tisa her photos- copies.. and something else. Kinda a gift, but not exactly from me... intrigued yet?
I am reading Dante's Inferno... to see what was in Charlottas head when she went completely crazy.
next I will read Atlas Shrug as it is my dads and mums favorite.
And I will read teh Odyssey... because I should and I never have.
And I am making art... and yoga... and friends....
And I dance... and play... and go on daily walks and rides.... and I think I am in love with life...
though things still make me sad. Like Chris... or the happenstance of Chris and I.
Its like dealing with a death.... makes me twitch and sneeze a little....
thats my life now.
Oh and I am going crazy looking for the story I wrote about "Ginny".. if any of you have a copy of it in your email... from this last April time... PLEASE email me it.
Thanks.
loves.
CADE
17 mins left