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it''s been a while since i last updated i know.
so nohting reli that great happening right now i guess...the bitch hannah wouldnt let me go back to candle light ( big surprise) but im gunna try and see if i can get back into camp for week B of 3rd session. i reli hope to go that they let me, cause that would mean the world to me.
my dad is bieng a prick as usual..he says hes worried about me..yet he lets steve run around with kids he doesnt even no to get high..yet hes worried about me..wow.
im so confused about so many things right now concerning guys. i like ben, a lot, and i went back to pick up steve from camp and i saw him..i was shaking i was so happy. you have no idea, i just like him oh-so much, buut theres this kid chris. and i mean i like chris, he has a great personality and everything but idk i think it may b too early to start something.im still not over what jon did to me. Andrew told me to go with what i feel is right..and its hard cuz i know someone will get hurt by what i feel is right in my heart. i love ben, like i really honestly and whole-heartedly do. and i know what a stupid reason to not date chris right. i mean ben is amazing and all but he has a gf, lives in new zealand and if i dont get a chance to go back to camp im never gunna see him again in my life. but still theres something inside my heart telling me that i shouldnt date ne one for a little while. this all is confusing to me. idk wut to do ne more at all.
love becky
so nohting reli that great happening right now i guess...the bitch hannah wouldnt let me go back to candle light ( big surprise) but im gunna try and see if i can get back into camp for week B of 3rd session. i reli hope to go that they let me, cause that would mean the world to me.
my dad is bieng a prick as usual..he says hes worried about me..yet he lets steve run around with kids he doesnt even no to get high..yet hes worried about me..wow.
im so confused about so many things right now concerning guys. i like ben, a lot, and i went back to pick up steve from camp and i saw him..i was shaking i was so happy. you have no idea, i just like him oh-so much, buut theres this kid chris. and i mean i like chris, he has a great personality and everything but idk i think it may b too early to start something.im still not over what jon did to me. Andrew told me to go with what i feel is right..and its hard cuz i know someone will get hurt by what i feel is right in my heart. i love ben, like i really honestly and whole-heartedly do. and i know what a stupid reason to not date chris right. i mean ben is amazing and all but he has a gf, lives in new zealand and if i dont get a chance to go back to camp im never gunna see him again in my life. but still theres something inside my heart telling me that i shouldnt date ne one for a little while. this all is confusing to me. idk wut to do ne more at all.
love becky