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this pretty much sums up whats really bothering me lately, and whats been going through my head ....
BarbiesxAnorexic: but like... ben, hes is just amazing ..when i had my anxiety attack and i was gross and crying and shaking he was by my side the whole time, holding my hand, and i just remember seeing him running to the porch of the nurses office because he wanted to see if i was alright. i have never had ne one care for me so much i really love him, like i ugh i do. and im never gunna see him again in my life cuz he lives in new zealand. i didnt reli even get to say goodbye to him, i was walking back to my cabin..to get my shit and i saw him standing in his unit with my brother...ben ( not my bro ) comes running over and hugs me, and i was crying like u cannot believe, and i told ben that htey were sending me home and he said oh my god, and just hugged me more....but then this bitch hannah pulled us apart and told ben tht if he wanted to say goodbye to me than he should b at the office in 5 mins. well we went to the office like 6 mins later and he was still in line with his cabin cuz he couldnt come just yet..and they wouldnt let me say goodbye to him, or ne one at that. i will never see him again or many of the counselors and i had to leave without saying goodbye. i dk its hard to explain but i just love ben, so much, much more than i ever could have loved jon, i have never been cared about so much in my life ya know..like not even by jon..or even my parents not to sound like a corn dog but he reli moved me
i..i dont even know anymore
love
Becky
BarbiesxAnorexic: but like... ben, hes is just amazing ..when i had my anxiety attack and i was gross and crying and shaking he was by my side the whole time, holding my hand, and i just remember seeing him running to the porch of the nurses office because he wanted to see if i was alright. i have never had ne one care for me so much i really love him, like i ugh i do. and im never gunna see him again in my life cuz he lives in new zealand. i didnt reli even get to say goodbye to him, i was walking back to my cabin..to get my shit and i saw him standing in his unit with my brother...ben ( not my bro ) comes running over and hugs me, and i was crying like u cannot believe, and i told ben that htey were sending me home and he said oh my god, and just hugged me more....but then this bitch hannah pulled us apart and told ben tht if he wanted to say goodbye to me than he should b at the office in 5 mins. well we went to the office like 6 mins later and he was still in line with his cabin cuz he couldnt come just yet..and they wouldnt let me say goodbye to him, or ne one at that. i will never see him again or many of the counselors and i had to leave without saying goodbye. i dk its hard to explain but i just love ben, so much, much more than i ever could have loved jon, i have never been cared about so much in my life ya know..like not even by jon..or even my parents not to sound like a corn dog but he reli moved me
i..i dont even know anymore
love
Becky