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Today.. Crandon, Bryan, Alie, Ryan, Amanda, Jeff, Lou, Masse and myself had to clean out Mike's room. Which is something I never thought I would ever be doing on christmas vacation, or any other day soon in my life. Having to clean out a friends room because of death. Mike died.. Mike's dead... those words never seemed real to me, and even now, it's still so hard to believe. Someone who was the nicest kid ever, whom I saw all the time, who was my best friends(crandon), best friend, is just not here anymore. It still doesn't make sense to me. I just really wanna talk to Mike, and I can't. And everyone agrees that, that just sucks. So were all stuck in the same stupid ass boat and I hate seeing the people I care about most sad. I hate being sad myself. And I hate the word sadness. I don't even know where i'm going with this.. my mind is everywhere right about now. I'm upset that things went this way. Life is just seems to unfair too me sometimes.

I'm really happy that I got a few of Mike's things today though. I got a Hendrix poster, sharpes, some gimp that I made and left in his car and two of his mix cd's. All I know is I'll always keep/cherish those things cause that kid will never be forgotten.
Everyone all hung out after. It was fun. But I got my FUCKING girl thing. gross. so i'm pretty pissed. but whatever. mehhhhhhhhh
Yesterday was awesome, Meg, Tiff and I crashed at Jen's house.. oohohh gooddd - I just love my girls.. mad fun

*New Years eve tomorrow*
were all going over to the Carpilio's. I'm excited!

brownies.. MmMmmM

Later :)