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I don't particularly like the way the shadows dance across my walls at night, and the lights and movement I'm seeing. This isn't normal. I admit, it is beginning to slowly eat away at my imagination, or feed it, I haven't made up my mind at the moment. All I know if over the last few days I have experienced minor outbursts of creativity. Miniscule, at the most, but still enough to produce pictures, take note the previous post for instance. I miss Ashley. She stopped calling, and IM'ing me, and basically stopped mentioning me altogether. I find myself unnocupied at the moment so I scour the journals in hopes of something worth my time, but I find it difficult to read at the current moment.
I've been drawing planets lately, I don't know why. I can't seem to stop myself. It's fun, but I just wonder why I seem to have a sudden fascination with celestial bodies and planets with no names nor recognizable faces.
I'm hearing sounds, I keep darting my eyes in search of things I'm terrified of seeing, and sometimes imagine I do see. Why do I peer over my shoulder? What am I afraid of?
The only thing that paralyzes me nowadays is my own imagination. Everything I'm afraid of lives in the dreams I create as I wander halls, and the things my mind's eye perceives when my eyelids shut.
I used to picture myself as a nice person. I would enjoy going out of my way to do something for someone I hardly even knew, putting them before me. I fear those feelings are fading, as I begin to grow closer to complete self obsession, and worry I may soon be only concerned with my own well being. I grew tired of the lack of thanks.
I wish i could talk to Jes right now, and hopefully I'll be able to visit her this Summer. That would honestly, bring all of this confusion to an end. I could put a face to the dreams I conjure while I sit awake, to the fantasies and images running throughout my mind.
I feel as though once I can see her, all past experiences will be forgotten. I suppose that might sound odd?
It's hard to explain.
I've never been good with explanations, I tend to be more precise with the written(or in this case, typed) word than the spoken language. i tend to stutter my way through sentences.
See? Drew that today, yet another planet, although this lacks any meaning associated with the exploration of unknown knowledge, mor along the lines of th seperation of light and dark, Heaven and Hell, Yin and Yang, the concious and the subconcious. The underside represents the darker half of the human psyche, and the lighter half represents the joyous emotions, while some may be lacking, still contain in their minds. Due to the fact it's a planet, the rotation factor comes into account, which can show how the brain can pass through periods of each periodically. Plus it looks pretty badass. Perhaps I can do one based on a constellation? I don't know, only time will tell.
Kayla wanted a picture of a Pony.
I think I'm done speaking for now. For those of you who survived the update, please accept my utmost apologies.
Call me tomorrow, someone? I want something to do.
-Cody
I've been drawing planets lately, I don't know why. I can't seem to stop myself. It's fun, but I just wonder why I seem to have a sudden fascination with celestial bodies and planets with no names nor recognizable faces.
I'm hearing sounds, I keep darting my eyes in search of things I'm terrified of seeing, and sometimes imagine I do see. Why do I peer over my shoulder? What am I afraid of?
The only thing that paralyzes me nowadays is my own imagination. Everything I'm afraid of lives in the dreams I create as I wander halls, and the things my mind's eye perceives when my eyelids shut.
I used to picture myself as a nice person. I would enjoy going out of my way to do something for someone I hardly even knew, putting them before me. I fear those feelings are fading, as I begin to grow closer to complete self obsession, and worry I may soon be only concerned with my own well being. I grew tired of the lack of thanks.
I wish i could talk to Jes right now, and hopefully I'll be able to visit her this Summer. That would honestly, bring all of this confusion to an end. I could put a face to the dreams I conjure while I sit awake, to the fantasies and images running throughout my mind.
I feel as though once I can see her, all past experiences will be forgotten. I suppose that might sound odd?
It's hard to explain.
I've never been good with explanations, I tend to be more precise with the written(or in this case, typed) word than the spoken language. i tend to stutter my way through sentences.
See? Drew that today, yet another planet, although this lacks any meaning associated with the exploration of unknown knowledge, mor along the lines of th seperation of light and dark, Heaven and Hell, Yin and Yang, the concious and the subconcious. The underside represents the darker half of the human psyche, and the lighter half represents the joyous emotions, while some may be lacking, still contain in their minds. Due to the fact it's a planet, the rotation factor comes into account, which can show how the brain can pass through periods of each periodically. Plus it looks pretty badass. Perhaps I can do one based on a constellation? I don't know, only time will tell.
Kayla wanted a picture of a Pony.
I think I'm done speaking for now. For those of you who survived the update, please accept my utmost apologies.
Call me tomorrow, someone? I want something to do.
-Cody