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Finally bit the bullet and went to my primary doctor.
Its been about two years, and my health has been so-so at best.
The weight has stayed off, so there is a big plus.
Regardless of anything else, this means that my mobility issues (see: foot that perpetually turns outward with limping) have decreased exponentially.
At the doctor, I asked him for something that I never ever thought that I would ask a doctor for: antidepressants.
He asked some questions, went over it with me, and gave me a script for Wellbutrin.
Because I am really tired of self medicating
(see: alcoholism)
with the exception of marijuana, because that actually helps
(see: when NYS finally jumps on the medical bandwagon, I will be first in line).
I also explained this to the doctor, being as honest as possible given the short amount of time that we had together.
He's a good doctor. I started seeing him when I had Medicaid, because he accepted it. His office is in the same building as AIDS Community Services, and he sees a lot of people with addiction issues. It also happens to be a LGBT related practice, with the intake form asking those types of questions, as well. Which makes me feel comfortable.
So.
Wellbutrin.
He wants to see me again in a month, and continuously monitor and blah blah blah.
My hopes is that this helps with the agoraphobia, the anxiety, the suicidal ideation...to the point where it stops effecting my life. Where I can get on with my life, go outside and play, be social again, have friends again, maybe accomplish something academically.
That would be nice.
Its been about two years, and my health has been so-so at best.
The weight has stayed off, so there is a big plus.
Regardless of anything else, this means that my mobility issues (see: foot that perpetually turns outward with limping) have decreased exponentially.
At the doctor, I asked him for something that I never ever thought that I would ask a doctor for: antidepressants.
He asked some questions, went over it with me, and gave me a script for Wellbutrin.
Because I am really tired of self medicating
(see: alcoholism)
with the exception of marijuana, because that actually helps
(see: when NYS finally jumps on the medical bandwagon, I will be first in line).
I also explained this to the doctor, being as honest as possible given the short amount of time that we had together.
He's a good doctor. I started seeing him when I had Medicaid, because he accepted it. His office is in the same building as AIDS Community Services, and he sees a lot of people with addiction issues. It also happens to be a LGBT related practice, with the intake form asking those types of questions, as well. Which makes me feel comfortable.
So.
Wellbutrin.
He wants to see me again in a month, and continuously monitor and blah blah blah.
My hopes is that this helps with the agoraphobia, the anxiety, the suicidal ideation...to the point where it stops effecting my life. Where I can get on with my life, go outside and play, be social again, have friends again, maybe accomplish something academically.
That would be nice.