too scared.
when it gets broken down, i lost Lover J2, the love of my life, because i was too scared- scared to how i felt about him, scared about how it would change the way my friendships were, scared to give all of my effort into it.
I was reminded by Lover J2's sister of the saying 'if you love something, let if free. and if it comes back, then it was true love.' It's very cliche, but it seems to make me feel just a little bit better. I know that Lover J2 and i were not perfect for each other then. It was clear. and neither of us were happy in our relationship. we obviously weren't perfect for each other if it didn't work out. It just kills me to know that we are perfect 'personality-wise' and i definitely feel like we can be perfect in the entire-sense in the future. i just hope that we get the chance sometime in the future. but until then, all of this is going to be killing me and ripping up my insides into pieces.
I was reminded by Lover J2's sister of the saying 'if you love something, let if free. and if it comes back, then it was true love.' It's very cliche, but it seems to make me feel just a little bit better. I know that Lover J2 and i were not perfect for each other then. It was clear. and neither of us were happy in our relationship. we obviously weren't perfect for each other if it didn't work out. It just kills me to know that we are perfect 'personality-wise' and i definitely feel like we can be perfect in the entire-sense in the future. i just hope that we get the chance sometime in the future. but until then, all of this is going to be killing me and ripping up my insides into pieces.