I"m soo SICK!!!
Being sick really sux!!! I hate having mono. My throat hurts, my ears hurt, i can't eat anything!!!!!! I had to work at 3 yesturday and i didn't even go to school cuz i was soo sick. So i went in at 3 and right when i walked in i knew i wouldn't last. By 4 they knew i was lyke deathly ill so they tried calling ina replacement but couldn't find one and by 4:30 i was so sick they just told me i could go home. I went ot bed as soon as i went home and tried to sleep but it was really hard. My mom and sisters had plans so it was really quiet but that really didn't matter. I was up by 6:30 this morning but also woke up at lyke 2:30 and 3:00 and 4 and blah blah.....I got out of bed and sat downstairs and watched t.v. at lyke 7:30.
The morning seemed to drag on forever and of course it was nice out and i was stuck in the house. So now i am here typing in my lj and i am actually kinda pissed off. My friend Jess and i decided not to be friends anymore, after of course we got into a big fight but whatever. Now my other friend jami won't talk to me and i honestly don't know why. The last time i saw her was in school and we had an actual concert. We were sitting next to each other and we were kind of emotional cuz they played this one song bout killing yourself and jamie looked at me and told me see jen, we are here for u. Now i must have done sumthing wrong but i honestly don't know what it is that i did. I figure it must be pretty bad cuz she is not the type of person to do sumthing lyke that without a good reason.
WEll jamie this is for u. I don't care if u believe me or not. Whatever it is u think i did i really wanna know what it is. I really didn't do anything the last time i checked and as stupid and probably non believeable as that sounds it is true. I have only known u for a year, but u should know me well enough that i would never backstab u or anything. Especially after what u helped me through, y would i do anything lyke that? If it is this whole neglecting thing that came out of no where, then i am sry. I would have called to tell u that but u won't accept my calls so whatever. U and kathleen deserved better than the way i treated u and the way jessicalynn treated u. Becuz if it is for that than why would u forgive jessicalynn and not me? Look i apoligize for that and that alone. Plz if our friendship ment anything to u than plz just call me. If it is only to bitch me out than fine. The thought of u angry at anyone to be honest kinda scares me. LOL.
The morning seemed to drag on forever and of course it was nice out and i was stuck in the house. So now i am here typing in my lj and i am actually kinda pissed off. My friend Jess and i decided not to be friends anymore, after of course we got into a big fight but whatever. Now my other friend jami won't talk to me and i honestly don't know why. The last time i saw her was in school and we had an actual concert. We were sitting next to each other and we were kind of emotional cuz they played this one song bout killing yourself and jamie looked at me and told me see jen, we are here for u. Now i must have done sumthing wrong but i honestly don't know what it is that i did. I figure it must be pretty bad cuz she is not the type of person to do sumthing lyke that without a good reason.
WEll jamie this is for u. I don't care if u believe me or not. Whatever it is u think i did i really wanna know what it is. I really didn't do anything the last time i checked and as stupid and probably non believeable as that sounds it is true. I have only known u for a year, but u should know me well enough that i would never backstab u or anything. Especially after what u helped me through, y would i do anything lyke that? If it is this whole neglecting thing that came out of no where, then i am sry. I would have called to tell u that but u won't accept my calls so whatever. U and kathleen deserved better than the way i treated u and the way jessicalynn treated u. Becuz if it is for that than why would u forgive jessicalynn and not me? Look i apoligize for that and that alone. Plz if our friendship ment anything to u than plz just call me. If it is only to bitch me out than fine. The thought of u angry at anyone to be honest kinda scares me. LOL.