Smile like you mean it
When I was thinking about my next journal update, I was planning on writing about how I have always been afraid of everything and how that fear has caused me to miss out on so much. Ugh and I was so frustrated with everything and life; it was no good. I thought that my constant fear is what has caused things to go not so smoothly this past two months and yeah, my lack of experience played a bit into it, but oh well. Now I know. Experience is grand. hehe So obviously with some recent events, I am realizing that being grumpy at my silly fears won't help. I am such a hypocrite sometimes. I keep telling someone that if he truly wants to change he needs to act on it. I never act, myself. And I have this newly found confidence and lovely, quirky personality of mine, why wouldn't I want to share it with the world?
So life is continually an adventure and I am excited for it. I realize that all my regrets have come from not doing something...I remember a discussion with one of friends up here about dumb mistakes and I honestly had nothing to share. I had never done anything out of order or cruel, always as cautious as could be. If you learn from your mistakes, was I really learning about myself throughout highschool? Well, I think we all know the answer to that. I have a pretty good head on my shoulders so I think I will pretty much be ok. I know if I will be doing something that is not in my best interest in the long run. I have to learn to trust myself. So now that I am beginning to see all of this, I refuse to feel sorry for myself. Yeah, the whole ordeal which I went through pretty much sucks, but it has brought so many things to light. I am ready to act and not the fear the world. I am just incredibly good mood right now and not because of anyone else, but because I am finally learning and connecting with people. Hooray!
What you've become,
Just as I have
Are you and I so unalike?
I don't hear you
Just as I am
Afraid if we dance we might die
Mock the world
Live safe, say why
Don't you know if you live life
Then you become what you are~DMB
So life is continually an adventure and I am excited for it. I realize that all my regrets have come from not doing something...I remember a discussion with one of friends up here about dumb mistakes and I honestly had nothing to share. I had never done anything out of order or cruel, always as cautious as could be. If you learn from your mistakes, was I really learning about myself throughout highschool? Well, I think we all know the answer to that. I have a pretty good head on my shoulders so I think I will pretty much be ok. I know if I will be doing something that is not in my best interest in the long run. I have to learn to trust myself. So now that I am beginning to see all of this, I refuse to feel sorry for myself. Yeah, the whole ordeal which I went through pretty much sucks, but it has brought so many things to light. I am ready to act and not the fear the world. I am just incredibly good mood right now and not because of anyone else, but because I am finally learning and connecting with people. Hooray!
What you've become,
Just as I have
Are you and I so unalike?
I don't hear you
Just as I am
Afraid if we dance we might die
Mock the world
Live safe, say why
Don't you know if you live life
Then you become what you are~DMB