Like a ship without a rudder
It's kind of weird to be at the beginning of an experience that will be life altering. You know going into something like this that you will have a lot of different opinions and experiences coming out. It's not like I am expecting to wake up one morning to be a totally different person; it will be probably like freshman year in college when you look back at the end and all you can do is shake your head and smile. I kind of like that that feeling; it gives you a sense of accomplishment, like when I finished reading Anne of Green Gables or watching Band of Brothers for the first time. I don't know; it's sort of hard to describe, but you get this sense that you just went through some sort of great adventure. Now, I am going through that adventure myself.
I don't know if I am putting far too many expectations into this trip or if I only think I am. There has been a phrase that has been turning over in my head for the past few days. Ready?..."mental masturbation" I didn't make that up on my own. I stole it from some Placebo lyrics, but I kind of like it. I am notoriously known for over-analyzing situations, and all that thinking ends up fucking you. So I have resolved to be cautious but more rolling with the punches-ish. Does anyone remember when I was like that for 2 months last year? well, I do and it was good times so we will try to get back to that...
The clouds made perfect seats to judge the world and all its creatures,
To look on down and criticise the best and the worst features,
The sky was so right, I thought it could be the answer to all my questions,
Seeing life through a hawk’s eye, I knew it all, I needed no suggestions.
~stolen lyrics from my Irish/English friend,Kevin
(you can tell they were written by an English kid cause criticize is spelled with an "s")
I don't know if I am putting far too many expectations into this trip or if I only think I am. There has been a phrase that has been turning over in my head for the past few days. Ready?..."mental masturbation" I didn't make that up on my own. I stole it from some Placebo lyrics, but I kind of like it. I am notoriously known for over-analyzing situations, and all that thinking ends up fucking you. So I have resolved to be cautious but more rolling with the punches-ish. Does anyone remember when I was like that for 2 months last year? well, I do and it was good times so we will try to get back to that...
The clouds made perfect seats to judge the world and all its creatures,
To look on down and criticise the best and the worst features,
The sky was so right, I thought it could be the answer to all my questions,
Seeing life through a hawk’s eye, I knew it all, I needed no suggestions.
~stolen lyrics from my Irish/English friend,Kevin
(you can tell they were written by an English kid cause criticize is spelled with an "s")