With fingernails that shine like justice
ugh, man. hellooo weekend.
don't get me wrong, i'm ok. and things could ALWAYS be worse. but there are weeks like this that make me glad to just be at the END of them. XP stress + anxiety + work = slightly frazzled.
i wonder sometimes if i run myself ragged on purpose just so i can have this sense of relief when it's over. i'm hope i'm not really that crazy.
*shakes it off*
So, all that crap aside, i made a big decision this week. (well, big for me) I'm going to go to Eyecon in September. which is a sci-fi, supernatural convention in florida. :O something i was back and forth about doing for a month or so before finally just giving up doing what i'd really like to do. and it really does kinda feel like karma with all of the events that led up to the decision :) which was cute, really. (i won't bore with the details, but it was very karma-ish)
so this means, that since Eyecon is only a week after Anime Weekend Atlanta, and there isn't a chance in hell of me taking the time off to attend both, i'll thus be forfeiting the trip to Georgia. It's a tough choice, since I feel kinda bad that the rest of Angel Jules Studios will be there, but I feel somehow that if I don't get myself to do this THIS year, then things won't ever fall into place as easily as they have now. so here's hoping :3
i'm a little nervous, however, as this will be the first convention i attend completely ON MY OWN. including the fact that there isn't really anyone i personally know attending. but oh well. what the hell, why not? if anything, it's something new, right? there won't always be people around to go with me to the places i'd like to see. *crosses fingers*
Still arting/drawing/coloring/being creative. Still generally being in good spirits and still back to working on the diet thing. i've pretty much lost most of what i gained back in my dumb little hiatus (which was nice to see that i could kick my own ass so well) so I intend on continuing to do so before i get my Olivier Armstrong costume together for Nekocon. we'll see how that pans out. i'm cautiously optimistic, but it comes and goes. living with junk food junkies doesn't really help x.x
the rollercoaster that was this week has somehow ended on such a not-so-assured thump at the end that it's left me wondering what could possibly come next.
yet the more i think about it, the more i really, really don't want to know.
OMG, WHY AM I STILL AWAKE. *poofs*
don't get me wrong, i'm ok. and things could ALWAYS be worse. but there are weeks like this that make me glad to just be at the END of them. XP stress + anxiety + work = slightly frazzled.
i wonder sometimes if i run myself ragged on purpose just so i can have this sense of relief when it's over. i'm hope i'm not really that crazy.
*shakes it off*
So, all that crap aside, i made a big decision this week. (well, big for me) I'm going to go to Eyecon in September. which is a sci-fi, supernatural convention in florida. :O something i was back and forth about doing for a month or so before finally just giving up doing what i'd really like to do. and it really does kinda feel like karma with all of the events that led up to the decision :) which was cute, really. (i won't bore with the details, but it was very karma-ish)
so this means, that since Eyecon is only a week after Anime Weekend Atlanta, and there isn't a chance in hell of me taking the time off to attend both, i'll thus be forfeiting the trip to Georgia. It's a tough choice, since I feel kinda bad that the rest of Angel Jules Studios will be there, but I feel somehow that if I don't get myself to do this THIS year, then things won't ever fall into place as easily as they have now. so here's hoping :3
i'm a little nervous, however, as this will be the first convention i attend completely ON MY OWN. including the fact that there isn't really anyone i personally know attending. but oh well. what the hell, why not? if anything, it's something new, right? there won't always be people around to go with me to the places i'd like to see. *crosses fingers*
Still arting/drawing/coloring/being creative. Still generally being in good spirits and still back to working on the diet thing. i've pretty much lost most of what i gained back in my dumb little hiatus (which was nice to see that i could kick my own ass so well) so I intend on continuing to do so before i get my Olivier Armstrong costume together for Nekocon. we'll see how that pans out. i'm cautiously optimistic, but it comes and goes. living with junk food junkies doesn't really help x.x
the rollercoaster that was this week has somehow ended on such a not-so-assured thump at the end that it's left me wondering what could possibly come next.
yet the more i think about it, the more i really, really don't want to know.
OMG, WHY AM I STILL AWAKE. *poofs*