I love the whole world!
I'M SO HAPPY, I DON'T HAVE THE WORDS FOR IT.
First of all: I'M FREE!!!
I'd been itching for today to come, and when I finally passed my answer sheet after that horrible Physics 72 final exam... I let out a huge sigh of relief. This hell week is finally through. My semester is finally OVER. Thank the Lord, hallelujah. I won't elaborate here because I know many of you are still going through your own personal hell. Good luck guys, kayang-kaya nyo yan! *twirls*
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I will share with you another HUGE thing that made me happy today - even more than finishing the sem did. :D I left the torrent downloading when I left for school, and I immediately started watching the new Grey's Anatomy episode when I got home.
UM. BEST EPISODE EVER!!!!!
So. I said before that the amazing candle house scene was my absolute favorite Grey's scene EVER. I flailed an epic amount while I was watching it, I flailed some more all over LJ, and to this day I cannot think about that scene without grinning like an idiot. (Because... come on. That was epic.)
I didn't think Shonda or any of the writers would be able to blow me away after that. They are the masters of speechifying, yes. But after more than 4 years of enduring their often circular/nonsensical/redundant speeches and voice-overs, I thought the best had already passed, and I'd have to settle for so-so ones from now on.
BOY, I HAVE NEVER BEEN MORE HAPPY TO BE PROVEN WRONG. AND HOW WRONG I WAS, MY GOODNESS. I went into this newest episode with zero expectations, just wanting to celebrate and reward myself after this glorious last-day-of-school thing. I'd assumed it was going to be all about Izzie, and all about the drama, so I was absolutely not expecting this to happen. WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. :D
Before the Epic Flail, here's some set-up:
(Derek gives Meredith the ring.)
Meredith: No. Not like this. Today's your first day back at the hospital. Today's about Izzie. You have to operate on her brain. You have a gift, and you can do this.
See? Not exactly a promising start to the episode. Blech. :P
Chief: It's not a good time. He's still scrubbing in.
Meredith: I know. It's just... he should wear this. It's his ferryboats scrub cap. He loves ferryboats.
They finally brought back the scrub cap!!! :D I've missed that so much, and it so contains much of Derek's surgery mojo. I was so happy to see that Meredith had the scrub cap with her (or at the very least knew exactly where to get it), and that she poked her head into the room and gave it to Derek. If that isn't love, I don't know what is. ♥
Derek: Meredith.
Meredith: What are you doing? Now you have to re-scrub.
Derek: I'm not ready.
Meredith: Yes you are.
Derek: I need to know that at least I have you. That no matter what happens in there, I need to know. I need you to say yes. I need to know.
Meredith: I can't say yes. Not if agreeing to be with you forever will make it okay if Izzie dies. I can't say yes. I love you, and you can do this. You can do this. I know you can.
A casual "I love you" from Meredith Grey! Look at her being all calm, cool and collected cheerleader! She's so strong, and Derek needs her so much, and oh. Everything's going to be okay, you guys.
Derek: A beautiful night to save lives. Let's get started.
I love Derek. And I so love that scrub cap.
Chief: Surgery went well today. Shouldn't you and Meredith be out celebrating or something?
Derek: She turned me down twice today. She said she understands, she forgives me for what happened in the woods. But...
Chief: So you showed her your dark side. Meredith never struck me as a woman who was afraid of the dark.
Derek: I don't know.
Chief: Do you know it was Meredith's idea to ask Izzie if she wanted to harvest her eggs? So Izzie could have a chance at the future she wants? A future, Derek. She was confident that you'd succeed today. Meredith believed in you.
I hate that the Chief meddles so much in their lives, and I hate that he keeps being the one to push either one of them in the right direction. But hey, as long as it works. As long as the two of them end up in the same place, together, I guess I really can't complain. Also: thank God Derek finally shaved that mountain man beard off. I'm really not a fan.
Aaaaaaaaaaand here we go. :D
Chief: No, you can't take that one.
Meredith: Why not?
Chief: I said don't take it.
Meredith: I will take the elevator I want to take.
Oh, Chief. I so want to hate you completely, but I can't because of this moment made of pure WIN. I wish somebody else had helped Derek with this, but whatever, I'm just nitpicking.
Derek: Hey. Come on in. This is a CT of Katie Bryce. Sixteen year-old female, subarachnoid aneurysm.
Meredith: From a fall during rhythmic gymnastics. I remember.
Derek: That was the first surgery we ever scrubbed in together on. Our first save.
OMG, KATIE BRYCE. Such an epic, epic character. :P I had to pause the video when Derek began his speech, because it was then that I realized that he was going to propose in this huge-gesture-y, incredibly sweet, bringing-up-their-history way. The best proposals are always like this. :) Okay enough of my commentary for now, I'll let Derek do the talking.
Derek: Right here is a treatable cyst. Tough save, but we did it. I kissed you in the stairwell after the surgery.
GUH at Patrick Dempsey licking his lips and staring at Ellen Pompeo's. GUHHHHHHHHH. (That was my last comment, I promise I'm shutting up now.)
Derek: And this right here was where Dr. Bailey kicked you out of the surgery because she caught us in your driveway in my car.
Derek: And right here, this is a seven hour craniotomy and you held the clamp the entire time. You never flinched. That's when I knew you were gonna be an incredible surgeon.
Derek: Beth Monroe. Made our clinical trial a success by surviving. You talked me into putting her under. That's when I knew I needed you.
Derek: And this is today. Post-op head CT of Izzie Stevens. See that, right there? Tumor free. Because of you. You got me into the OR.
Derek: If there's a crisis, you don't freeze. You move forward. You get the rest of us to move forward because you've seen worse. You've survived worse. And you knew we'll survive too. You say you're dark and twisty. It's not a flaw. It's a strength. It makes you who you are.
Derek: I'm not gonna get down on one knee. I'm not gonna ask a question. I love you, Meredith Grey. And I want to spend the rest of my life... with you.
Meredith: And I wanna spend the rest of my life with you.
THEY'RE ENGAGED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Finally he got the proposal right. He made it all about them. Their history (BRAIN SCANS! IN AN ELEVATOR!), their saves together (because he finally saw the light, finally listened to Meredith telling him that he's a great surgeon despite the losses), that he thinks her dark-and-twisty ways is a strength. All of Derek's speeches and ultimatums and declarations of love in the past were nothing compared to this. For the first time he got it completely right. It wasn't demanding or selfish or laden with back-handed jabs. It was just about him and her. Together.
And that little smile and that head-shake he did before kissing her? I'm sure most of that was Dempsey, but. BUT. It's just... he knows she is God's gift to him. He still can't completely comprehend that she's his. He is so grateful for her. YOU GUYS. THEY'RE ENGAGED! THEY'RE GOING TO SPEND THE REST OF THEIR LIVES TOGETHER!!!
Ohmylord. I can't even begin to tell you how happy that scene made me. I'm so glad I wasn't at all spoiled for it, that I went in with zero expectations! ♥ When the doors opened and showed a clean-shaven Derek standing amongst brain scans and charts, and then he started talking about KATIE BRYCE... I DIED. I was freaking out on my couch, screaming into my pillow, my arms flailing around to no end. I kept pausing the video to try to calm myself down, LOL. I was freaking out so much.
Just. This was all so perfect on so many levels. YOU GUYS. He proposed in an elevator. He brought up their illustrious (LOL) history through brain scans. MOST ROMANTIC THING EVER. He remembers all those things. He knows she'll be a great surgeon! He needs her! He tells her straight-out that he thinks that she's an incredibly strong person! GUH. As morgenwrites has already said so eloquently: And just, all the scans everywhere, starting with Katie Bryce and going all the way on up to Izzie Stevens. Perfection. See, Der? You do get Mer. When it really comes down to it, you know what she wants. A kidney in a jar. Brain scans in an elevator. This is your romance. Not hearts and flowers and oversized bears. It’s science. Medicine. That’s why you guys fell in love. ♥♥♥
Ahem. Here's the beautiful scene on YouTube, for your enjoyment:
It's the most perfect thing in the universe, and I am floating on cloud nine, blissed-out in the best way possible. I LOVE MY 'SHIP, and oh Grey's. I am so happy that I kept letting you pull me back in over and over even when you disappoint me so often. Yes, you gave us George/Izzie and hallucination!Denny and a bunch of other crap. I can forgive you, though. Because you have given me a house of candles and this. I think I will love you forever. :D
Sigh. We're going to Quezon tomorrow to celebrate my lola's birthday, we're leaving the house at an obscene hour in the morning, but I'm too wired to sleep. I guess I'll just watch that scene over and over and over and over. ♥
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I am so in love with Thursday night TV. Smallville was EPIC, as was the penultimate episode (SOB!) of E.R.. (Hee, just what westcoastlovin said: I like that ER is like "hey, we are donezo, let's just make everyone as HAPPY AS HUMANLY POSSIBLE!!" It's totally sweet to the fans.)
I'm just too lazy to picspam them, but oh man I squealed and flailed and giggled like a crazy person over them too. I can't wait to see what's next for these shows. :D
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It's Spelling Bee day on Sunday! I'll be there with obliviate and flippin_insane and it's sure to be an awesome time. :D
And I had another great surprise today - turns out the great burger_pattie and bottled_ether will be there too, and I can't wait to see both of them. :D WHEE!
**
"We value love not because it's stronger than death but because it's weaker. Say what you want about love: death will finish it. You will not go on loving in the grave, not in any physical way that will at all resemble love as we know it on earth. The perishable nature of love is what gives love its profound importance in our lives. If it were endless, if it were on tap, love wouldn't hit us the way it does. And we certainly wouldn't write about it."
-- My Mistress's Sparrow is Dead: Great Love Stories from Chekhov to Munro, by Jeffrey Eugenides
First of all: I'M FREE!!!
I'd been itching for today to come, and when I finally passed my answer sheet after that horrible Physics 72 final exam... I let out a huge sigh of relief. This hell week is finally through. My semester is finally OVER. Thank the Lord, hallelujah. I won't elaborate here because I know many of you are still going through your own personal hell. Good luck guys, kayang-kaya nyo yan! *twirls*
**
I will share with you another HUGE thing that made me happy today - even more than finishing the sem did. :D I left the torrent downloading when I left for school, and I immediately started watching the new Grey's Anatomy episode when I got home.
UM. BEST EPISODE EVER!!!!!
So. I said before that the amazing candle house scene was my absolute favorite Grey's scene EVER. I flailed an epic amount while I was watching it, I flailed some more all over LJ, and to this day I cannot think about that scene without grinning like an idiot. (Because... come on. That was epic.)
I didn't think Shonda or any of the writers would be able to blow me away after that. They are the masters of speechifying, yes. But after more than 4 years of enduring their often circular/nonsensical/redundant speeches and voice-overs, I thought the best had already passed, and I'd have to settle for so-so ones from now on.
BOY, I HAVE NEVER BEEN MORE HAPPY TO BE PROVEN WRONG. AND HOW WRONG I WAS, MY GOODNESS. I went into this newest episode with zero expectations, just wanting to celebrate and reward myself after this glorious last-day-of-school thing. I'd assumed it was going to be all about Izzie, and all about the drama, so I was absolutely not expecting this to happen. WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. :D
Before the Epic Flail, here's some set-up:
(Derek gives Meredith the ring.)
Meredith: No. Not like this. Today's your first day back at the hospital. Today's about Izzie. You have to operate on her brain. You have a gift, and you can do this.
See? Not exactly a promising start to the episode. Blech. :P
Chief: It's not a good time. He's still scrubbing in.
Meredith: I know. It's just... he should wear this. It's his ferryboats scrub cap. He loves ferryboats.
They finally brought back the scrub cap!!! :D I've missed that so much, and it so contains much of Derek's surgery mojo. I was so happy to see that Meredith had the scrub cap with her (or at the very least knew exactly where to get it), and that she poked her head into the room and gave it to Derek. If that isn't love, I don't know what is. ♥
Derek: Meredith.
Meredith: What are you doing? Now you have to re-scrub.
Derek: I'm not ready.
Meredith: Yes you are.
Derek: I need to know that at least I have you. That no matter what happens in there, I need to know. I need you to say yes. I need to know.
Meredith: I can't say yes. Not if agreeing to be with you forever will make it okay if Izzie dies. I can't say yes. I love you, and you can do this. You can do this. I know you can.
A casual "I love you" from Meredith Grey! Look at her being all calm, cool and collected cheerleader! She's so strong, and Derek needs her so much, and oh. Everything's going to be okay, you guys.
Derek: A beautiful night to save lives. Let's get started.
I love Derek. And I so love that scrub cap.
Chief: Surgery went well today. Shouldn't you and Meredith be out celebrating or something?
Derek: She turned me down twice today. She said she understands, she forgives me for what happened in the woods. But...
Chief: So you showed her your dark side. Meredith never struck me as a woman who was afraid of the dark.
Derek: I don't know.
Chief: Do you know it was Meredith's idea to ask Izzie if she wanted to harvest her eggs? So Izzie could have a chance at the future she wants? A future, Derek. She was confident that you'd succeed today. Meredith believed in you.
I hate that the Chief meddles so much in their lives, and I hate that he keeps being the one to push either one of them in the right direction. But hey, as long as it works. As long as the two of them end up in the same place, together, I guess I really can't complain. Also: thank God Derek finally shaved that mountain man beard off. I'm really not a fan.
Aaaaaaaaaaand here we go. :D
Chief: No, you can't take that one.
Meredith: Why not?
Chief: I said don't take it.
Meredith: I will take the elevator I want to take.
Oh, Chief. I so want to hate you completely, but I can't because of this moment made of pure WIN. I wish somebody else had helped Derek with this, but whatever, I'm just nitpicking.
Derek: Hey. Come on in. This is a CT of Katie Bryce. Sixteen year-old female, subarachnoid aneurysm.
Meredith: From a fall during rhythmic gymnastics. I remember.
Derek: That was the first surgery we ever scrubbed in together on. Our first save.
OMG, KATIE BRYCE. Such an epic, epic character. :P I had to pause the video when Derek began his speech, because it was then that I realized that he was going to propose in this huge-gesture-y, incredibly sweet, bringing-up-their-history way. The best proposals are always like this. :) Okay enough of my commentary for now, I'll let Derek do the talking.
Derek: Right here is a treatable cyst. Tough save, but we did it. I kissed you in the stairwell after the surgery.
GUH at Patrick Dempsey licking his lips and staring at Ellen Pompeo's. GUHHHHHHHHH. (That was my last comment, I promise I'm shutting up now.)
Derek: And this right here was where Dr. Bailey kicked you out of the surgery because she caught us in your driveway in my car.
Derek: And right here, this is a seven hour craniotomy and you held the clamp the entire time. You never flinched. That's when I knew you were gonna be an incredible surgeon.
Derek: Beth Monroe. Made our clinical trial a success by surviving. You talked me into putting her under. That's when I knew I needed you.
Derek: And this is today. Post-op head CT of Izzie Stevens. See that, right there? Tumor free. Because of you. You got me into the OR.
Derek: If there's a crisis, you don't freeze. You move forward. You get the rest of us to move forward because you've seen worse. You've survived worse. And you knew we'll survive too. You say you're dark and twisty. It's not a flaw. It's a strength. It makes you who you are.
Derek: I'm not gonna get down on one knee. I'm not gonna ask a question. I love you, Meredith Grey. And I want to spend the rest of my life... with you.
Meredith: And I wanna spend the rest of my life with you.
THEY'RE ENGAGED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Finally he got the proposal right. He made it all about them. Their history (BRAIN SCANS! IN AN ELEVATOR!), their saves together (because he finally saw the light, finally listened to Meredith telling him that he's a great surgeon despite the losses), that he thinks her dark-and-twisty ways is a strength. All of Derek's speeches and ultimatums and declarations of love in the past were nothing compared to this. For the first time he got it completely right. It wasn't demanding or selfish or laden with back-handed jabs. It was just about him and her. Together.
And that little smile and that head-shake he did before kissing her? I'm sure most of that was Dempsey, but. BUT. It's just... he knows she is God's gift to him. He still can't completely comprehend that she's his. He is so grateful for her. YOU GUYS. THEY'RE ENGAGED! THEY'RE GOING TO SPEND THE REST OF THEIR LIVES TOGETHER!!!
Ohmylord. I can't even begin to tell you how happy that scene made me. I'm so glad I wasn't at all spoiled for it, that I went in with zero expectations! ♥ When the doors opened and showed a clean-shaven Derek standing amongst brain scans and charts, and then he started talking about KATIE BRYCE... I DIED. I was freaking out on my couch, screaming into my pillow, my arms flailing around to no end. I kept pausing the video to try to calm myself down, LOL. I was freaking out so much.
Just. This was all so perfect on so many levels. YOU GUYS. He proposed in an elevator. He brought up their illustrious (LOL) history through brain scans. MOST ROMANTIC THING EVER. He remembers all those things. He knows she'll be a great surgeon! He needs her! He tells her straight-out that he thinks that she's an incredibly strong person! GUH. As morgenwrites has already said so eloquently: And just, all the scans everywhere, starting with Katie Bryce and going all the way on up to Izzie Stevens. Perfection. See, Der? You do get Mer. When it really comes down to it, you know what she wants. A kidney in a jar. Brain scans in an elevator. This is your romance. Not hearts and flowers and oversized bears. It’s science. Medicine. That’s why you guys fell in love. ♥♥♥
Ahem. Here's the beautiful scene on YouTube, for your enjoyment:
Click to viewIt's the most perfect thing in the universe, and I am floating on cloud nine, blissed-out in the best way possible. I LOVE MY 'SHIP, and oh Grey's. I am so happy that I kept letting you pull me back in over and over even when you disappoint me so often. Yes, you gave us George/Izzie and hallucination!Denny and a bunch of other crap. I can forgive you, though. Because you have given me a house of candles and this. I think I will love you forever. :D
Sigh. We're going to Quezon tomorrow to celebrate my lola's birthday, we're leaving the house at an obscene hour in the morning, but I'm too wired to sleep. I guess I'll just watch that scene over and over and over and over. ♥
**
I am so in love with Thursday night TV. Smallville was EPIC, as was the penultimate episode (SOB!) of E.R.. (Hee, just what westcoastlovin said: I like that ER is like "hey, we are donezo, let's just make everyone as HAPPY AS HUMANLY POSSIBLE!!" It's totally sweet to the fans.)
I'm just too lazy to picspam them, but oh man I squealed and flailed and giggled like a crazy person over them too. I can't wait to see what's next for these shows. :D
**
It's Spelling Bee day on Sunday! I'll be there with obliviate and flippin_insane and it's sure to be an awesome time. :D
And I had another great surprise today - turns out the great burger_pattie and bottled_ether will be there too, and I can't wait to see both of them. :D WHEE!
**
"We value love not because it's stronger than death but because it's weaker. Say what you want about love: death will finish it. You will not go on loving in the grave, not in any physical way that will at all resemble love as we know it on earth. The perishable nature of love is what gives love its profound importance in our lives. If it were endless, if it were on tap, love wouldn't hit us the way it does. And we certainly wouldn't write about it."
-- My Mistress's Sparrow is Dead: Great Love Stories from Chekhov to Munro, by Jeffrey Eugenides