i wish i could count to ten, make everything wonderful again
Your love is as high
as the heavens above us
and Your faithfulness
as certain as the dawn
**
it's been a week since i last posted here, and it's been thirteen days since my last semi-coherent entry. the past week, i've spent less than an hour per day surfing the 'Net - just enough catch up with my LJ friends' entries and check my mail.. but not much more than that.
school's started up again, and i'm following an incredibly tiring routine:
6:20 AM - wake up
7:00 - leave for school: walk to the gate, ride the jeep-bus-MRT-jeep combo
8:30 - go to class
2:30 PM - classes end
2:30~ - miscellaneous bonding time (with Kaye, last Tuesday; with Michi, last Friday) or org time (last Friday) or errands time (last Monday)
7:00 - get back home, have dinner, watch an episode of whatever i had just downloaded (Prison Break, Veronica Mars, Bones, Grey's Anatomy or Heroes)
8:00 - rewrite notes, do homework
11:00 - minimal internet time
11:30 - fall asleep with Grey's Anatomy reruns playing on the laptop while uTorrent downloads the episode for the next day.
aaaand. lather, rinse, repeat. @_@
it's been a week of this, and i am EXHAUSTED. maybe i'm getting old, maybe it's the 2+ hours of commuting on the way home, maybe i'm putting too much effort into my school work, maybe i'm not getting enough sleep, maybe the 8:30-2:30 sked without a free MINUTE was a terrible idea, maybe i miss spending time with my friends, maybe i haven't been eating healthfully (i never have time for a decent lunch), maybe it's because it's only been a week of school after 3 weeks of sem break - but i am just so freaking tired all the time.
i'm tired, and i can't seem to get enough rest, even on the weekend. :(
until December, my sked is incredibly hectic. i wouldn't have any free Wednesdays or downtime on the weekends. the PMHS Adventure Week is coming up, and that'll occupy for the rest of November. there are a lot of other org activities, two consecutive 18th birthday celebrations, and council work has started again. not to mention the utter HORROR that is Chem lab (ugh), and the pressure i'm putting on myself to get higher grades this semester.
grar. the bottom line is: i'm busy, i'm tired, and i'm not going to have much free time on my hands. which, you know, may be a good thing. i have all the materials i need at home - books, readings, notes. all there, begging to be devoured. and i really should be more focused on my studies. even the weekends are taken up with semi-productive time.
so - watch me, second semester. i am going to kick your ass. >:) in the meantime - goodbye for now, LJ. i'll be checking in once in a while, but i have to leave you alone (for the most part) until Christmas vacation.
**
Girl: Do you remember the night we met?
Boy: Of course. Of course I do.
Girl: What did you think ... of me? I mean, did you ever think we'd end up here?
Boy: I thought... I thought you were beautiful.
(He says it and he means it. Always, always did he think that.)
Boy: I thought you looked like the rest of my life.
**
"ewan ko. siguro kasi November 17. tapos [ikaw dapat] ang kasama ko."
it was the 17th of November a couple of days ago. i think that day will be one i can never forget, and one i will always be able to remember completely. throughout that day this year, as i sat in my different classes and spent time with my friends (whom i love and miss incredibly), i'd pause to recall exactly what i was doing at that exact moment one year ago. i have a notoriously bad memory, but i didn't miss a step when i tried to remember this particular day.
i knew that, at 9 AM (we were at the 4th year Physics room, i think), Vinni gave me a note that said You look at a star from two motives: because it is luminous and because it is impenetrable. You have at your side a softer radiance and a greater mystery: woman. i knew that, during our LifeSci class, i was with Benjie and Aildrene, and Sir Talaue gave me a note too. i knew that, at 11:30ish at the STR room, Jondie gave me a giant bar of chocolate. i knew that, at 7 PM, i was eating carbonara with six people who love me unconditionally (84, this means you).
i just.. i remember. and it's a happy kind of remembering, without any bitterness or regret, nor a tinge of jealousy at the fact that he's going to perform a romantic and completely over-the-top grand gesture for someone that won't be me. the 17th of November 2005 was mine. it was a day just for me. and i love that i will always have this day to look back on and smile about. :)
and so, to the boy who made that day possible: thank you. thank you for being the kind of person who would do all of it, and for being the one deranged enough to do it for someone like me. ♥
**
SA WEDNESDAY NAAAAAAA!!!
i really really really really REALLY want to order the Happy Feet bucket meal sa KFC. it comes with FOUR Happy Feet tumblers, and a Happy Feet bucket of chicken! please please please samahan nyo 'kong bumili nito. :(
(and, ahem. a little something to freak you out.)
**
how do you leave the past behind
when it keeps finding ways to get to your heart?
it reaches way down deep and tears you inside out
'til you're torn apart
**
A Fandom Recap
Prison Break
It continues to keep me on the edge of my seat. Keep it up, show. :)
(And I love you, Wenty!)
Veronica Mars
So what would Stan Marsh say in a situation like this? I think we all learned a
valuable lesson about faith: you give it to the people you love. But the people who
really deserve it are the ones who come through even when you don't love them enough.
I'm cautiously hopeful because of this voice-over. But it's going to be a fandom breakdown
of epic proportions when next week looks like what they said next week would be. :(
Heroes
Meet Hiro. I love Hiro. Hiro is the most adorable, and most sensible of all the Heroes.
I watch this show just for him. He just wants to save the world! Yatta! ♥
Grey's Anatomy
Mama may have, papa may have
But God bless the child thats got his own
Thats got his own ♥
Grey's is back, and it's up to the caliber that made me love it from the beginning.
I still think they have too many characters to know how to deal with in 42 minutes,
and they try too hard to please the fans - therefore degrading the stories a little.
But it's been good lately, and next weeks look promising.
Bones
I think everybody in the world should be watching Bones. It never fails to fill
me with glee, and it makes me just laugh out loud at many parts, and I can barely contain
my squee at others. I just have a great time while watching it.
Please continue not disappointing me, show. Thanks. :)
**
Hillsong concert on Tuesday :) yii i'm excited!
then Tin's debut on the 25th, Marga's on the 2nd. i ♥ debut season. and it's going to be a while til it ends. :P thank God for those born in 1990! hihi. :P i really enjoy spending time with high school friends in a setting that's completely different from Pisay or UP. just - a night of fun and celebration, for a friend's coming of age. :) best. :)
**
Who gets to determine when the old ends and the new begins? It’s not on the calendar, it’s not a birthday, it’s not a new year, it’s an event --big or small, something that changes us. Ideally it gives us hope, a new way of living and looking at the world, letting go of old habits, old memories. What's important is that we never stop believing we can have a new beginning, but it's also important to remember amid all the crap are a few things really worth holding on to.