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1) I hadn't realized how . . . debilitating the anxiety-type feelings were until I started the medication. Now I notice them but they don't hobble me; I see the thoughts / feelings from a slight distance, notice them, move on.
2) I feel pretty much everything that way. slightly removed. I still know that I'm lonely and unhappy, but now it's a thud and not a stab. If that makes any sense?
3) I heard the Shimmies doing a cover of Nirvana's "Aneurysm" today. A: God I love live music. B: I never hear Nirvana covers -- is that 'cause it's sacrosanct or just not interesting to musicians? C: We *are* in post-post-punk now, aren't we? The guys in the band made a joke about how they just wrote that song yesterday, and maybe a quarter of the people in the room didn't get why the rest of us were chuckling. weird.
*shrug* I've been that person before. not in on the joke or the musical / cultural reference. Will Stenberg, aka apparently Willy Rubio (insert eye roll) used to bust my chops constantly for trying to act like I was in the know when I wasn't. I just wanted to be liked. I think he meant well, but I took it hard.
blah. also! went to a baseball game today. fun!
2) I feel pretty much everything that way. slightly removed. I still know that I'm lonely and unhappy, but now it's a thud and not a stab. If that makes any sense?
3) I heard the Shimmies doing a cover of Nirvana's "Aneurysm" today. A: God I love live music. B: I never hear Nirvana covers -- is that 'cause it's sacrosanct or just not interesting to musicians? C: We *are* in post-post-punk now, aren't we? The guys in the band made a joke about how they just wrote that song yesterday, and maybe a quarter of the people in the room didn't get why the rest of us were chuckling. weird.
*shrug* I've been that person before. not in on the joke or the musical / cultural reference. Will Stenberg, aka apparently Willy Rubio (insert eye roll) used to bust my chops constantly for trying to act like I was in the know when I wasn't. I just wanted to be liked. I think he meant well, but I took it hard.
blah. also! went to a baseball game today. fun!