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I woke up this morning and my mind was wide awake and ready to do things. anything, it didn't care what. this was at about 6:30 in the morning. I tried to move, but my body was having absolutely none of it. that's a pretty new experience for me -- usually all of me wakes up at the same time. This went on until round about 9:30, when brain finally got angry and basically shoved body out of bed.
So I don't know if my being tired to the point of almost falling asleep three times throughout the day is due to the sleep or is a more direct reaction to my new chemistry. the plastic-wrapped-ness of my interaction with the world was less today, though still there; I sort of watch myself have certain thoughts. but the world felt more immediate today.
I irrationally wish I had applied to UC Merced right now. it seems like the place to be. My grandpappy always said "be willing to go 'round the world to find whatever it is that makes your world go 'round."
he didn't really say that, of course. I had two grandpas, and no grandpappies. My daughter calls her grand-dad Papa; she doesn't know *what* to call my dad, which is sort of funny. and sort of sad.
Interesting: even though I'm more tired, I also have more energy, as paradoxical as that seems -- I took two bike-rides downtown, and a medium-length walk, plus pull-ups, sit-ups, push-ups. I need to do *more* sit-ups; though some of you may find this hard to believe, I am beginning to develop a belly. srsly. I think if I just bike every day this summer and get some sit ups in, I'll be okay, but I have to keep reminding myself -- I'm 30 now. no more body-health free pass.
much to my chagrin.
So I don't know if my being tired to the point of almost falling asleep three times throughout the day is due to the sleep or is a more direct reaction to my new chemistry. the plastic-wrapped-ness of my interaction with the world was less today, though still there; I sort of watch myself have certain thoughts. but the world felt more immediate today.
I irrationally wish I had applied to UC Merced right now. it seems like the place to be. My grandpappy always said "be willing to go 'round the world to find whatever it is that makes your world go 'round."
he didn't really say that, of course. I had two grandpas, and no grandpappies. My daughter calls her grand-dad Papa; she doesn't know *what* to call my dad, which is sort of funny. and sort of sad.
Interesting: even though I'm more tired, I also have more energy, as paradoxical as that seems -- I took two bike-rides downtown, and a medium-length walk, plus pull-ups, sit-ups, push-ups. I need to do *more* sit-ups; though some of you may find this hard to believe, I am beginning to develop a belly. srsly. I think if I just bike every day this summer and get some sit ups in, I'll be okay, but I have to keep reminding myself -- I'm 30 now. no more body-health free pass.
much to my chagrin.