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hum... It's been a little while since I posted in live journal so I though I should. I don't have really alot to say. I went shopping today and got jeans. On the beginning of my super awesome trip downtown i felt really out of it. Like none exsitant, if that makes sense. I'v been feeling weird latly. Not really sick or even tired but very out of it. I know its the whole lot of walking around I do and the lack of sleep I get but I still have never really felt it this bad before. Even now its the same. Oh well. Maybe I need to learn on cleaing my head beore bed and trying to really sleep. I hate having insomnia.
I'm sad I didn't get Zofia's raply to DDRing, I only checked livejournal till today. *sad* I'm so bad. I didn;t even call either to make sure if it was still on for tuesday. I'll call you for sure just to conferm Dehdur day Manfia. I miss you.
Le sigh. I really don't have much to say. I'm not doing great in school and even when I want to try I have a hard time getting started. I'v been really blah latly. I do't want to do much at all.
Oh I guess I could bring up friend troubles again. Woot... never a shortage of those. I thought everthing was great but it seems to have slipped back into the same stuff that happened before. I don't understand why I can't get along with Ahsley. I try so hard. When she's upset I ask her whats wrong and I thought I matured so much in the last year. Me and her seem to be at each others necks on the smallest things. Just recently I went home upset because she was being really moody towards me and got mad at me when I ask what was wrong. I don't do anything that made me deserve to be treated that way, I didn't do anything wrong. Perhaps I should have just let her sulk and be mooding in the corner if that was how she was gonna be. Maybe I shouldn't have let it effect me so much. I had a feeling that it was because she didn't want me there. I had asked Tanzer if I could come along downtown and Tanzer said of course I could, but it seem's like Ashley may have not felt the same way. Ever since Tanzer doesn't spend all the time with Charloette anymore, Ashley has Tanzer back. She can't get enought of Tanzer and they live so close. I dunno. All I want is to spend time with my friends and have fun. Maybe I'm reading it wrong and Ashley was just having weird mood swings but she seems so possesive of Tanzer. I wan't to spend time with her and Ash. Bah. Why is everything so complicated. I cared to much about how others feel and everyone else is off having a good time. I wonder if I'll ever change. I shouldn't let Ashley do this to me. I just want to be her friend. I care about her alot but she says and does mean things to me. Or at least things that hurt me inside. It's not like I can get away because she's a huge part of my life and she's friends with all my friends. Not only that but I don't want to pull her out of my life or anything I just ... blah I dont know at all. What I really need to do is stop worrying. I need to sorround my self with people that make me feel happy a comfortable. I wish I could stop worrying. Why does it bug me so much?
Bleh. I feel all emotional and stuff. I'm so tired. I hope I can get some sleep this weekend. I'm hanging out with Faline and Faith tomorrow. ^_^ That makes me happy. I'm just not into sex and booze... hopefully my fun time with them is clean. I' not inocent but I'm very straight laced.
Le Monik is out. I'm obviously a masculan word in french.
La Monik just sound's dumb.
Bye bye.
I'm sad I didn't get Zofia's raply to DDRing, I only checked livejournal till today. *sad* I'm so bad. I didn;t even call either to make sure if it was still on for tuesday. I'll call you for sure just to conferm Dehdur day Manfia. I miss you.
Le sigh. I really don't have much to say. I'm not doing great in school and even when I want to try I have a hard time getting started. I'v been really blah latly. I do't want to do much at all.
Oh I guess I could bring up friend troubles again. Woot... never a shortage of those. I thought everthing was great but it seems to have slipped back into the same stuff that happened before. I don't understand why I can't get along with Ahsley. I try so hard. When she's upset I ask her whats wrong and I thought I matured so much in the last year. Me and her seem to be at each others necks on the smallest things. Just recently I went home upset because she was being really moody towards me and got mad at me when I ask what was wrong. I don't do anything that made me deserve to be treated that way, I didn't do anything wrong. Perhaps I should have just let her sulk and be mooding in the corner if that was how she was gonna be. Maybe I shouldn't have let it effect me so much. I had a feeling that it was because she didn't want me there. I had asked Tanzer if I could come along downtown and Tanzer said of course I could, but it seem's like Ashley may have not felt the same way. Ever since Tanzer doesn't spend all the time with Charloette anymore, Ashley has Tanzer back. She can't get enought of Tanzer and they live so close. I dunno. All I want is to spend time with my friends and have fun. Maybe I'm reading it wrong and Ashley was just having weird mood swings but she seems so possesive of Tanzer. I wan't to spend time with her and Ash. Bah. Why is everything so complicated. I cared to much about how others feel and everyone else is off having a good time. I wonder if I'll ever change. I shouldn't let Ashley do this to me. I just want to be her friend. I care about her alot but she says and does mean things to me. Or at least things that hurt me inside. It's not like I can get away because she's a huge part of my life and she's friends with all my friends. Not only that but I don't want to pull her out of my life or anything I just ... blah I dont know at all. What I really need to do is stop worrying. I need to sorround my self with people that make me feel happy a comfortable. I wish I could stop worrying. Why does it bug me so much?
Bleh. I feel all emotional and stuff. I'm so tired. I hope I can get some sleep this weekend. I'm hanging out with Faline and Faith tomorrow. ^_^ That makes me happy. I'm just not into sex and booze... hopefully my fun time with them is clean. I' not inocent but I'm very straight laced.
Le Monik is out. I'm obviously a masculan word in french.
La Monik just sound's dumb.
Bye bye.