november=...cold
Everything has been going so much better. everything with bobby..our relationship is WAY stronger now, and i love it so much. maybe too much. ;). i just know that i never ever want to lose him. he is the best boyfriend ever and i am so lucky that i found him. school...is okay. i just pretty much hate school now. but BOBBY again! lol. im so in love with him..he is all i ever think about. i hope we are together forever or longer. :). but anyways okay back to my life lol. i go to my step dads now almost everyday now to eat dinner and such...and use the computer and just hang out. its really strange and different andddd way complicated to be here though. it isnt my house anymore and it is just so hard to believe it. i still almost walk into my old room every time im here...i go to open the door and remember it is no longer mine. i almost cry everytime i do it..just because this whole thing is so depressing. even though its getting better, i just cant handle this kind of thing. i feel like almost afraid to be at my new house alone or anything, and its really really weird when my step dad walks in and watches tv with us or something. it just feels so unreal. i just want my old life back almost, but it seems like if things keep on going this way it will eventually have to get better before worse..right? i dont know. im just sort of freaking out right now. but when im with bobby i completely forget about it all and i acutally feel happy. really happy. like everything is fine. all my close friends arent even close to me anymore. i almost feel like the only person i reall can rely on is bobby. maybe its just my imagination..but i do not know. usually my feelings are right. anyways. i cant talk about this anymore so...on saturday bobby stayed the night, and on sunday i went out to the movies with lisa and her sister and people and watched saw 2. about peed myself. lol. well thats all i really have to write about at this moment. ill write more later. <3love Angie