long time no write
i dont even kno who im writin to anymore
atleast before i had ppl who would actually read my shit
i mean i guess i do it mostly for myself
get shit off my mind
i just think its so funny how ppl are
like they're there one minute
and the second your gone so are they
whackness
but i dont even let it phase me
b/c the world is full of much greater things
as the ppl say "there are bigger fish to fry"
well i hate fish
all kinds of fish
so im not even gonna bother wasting my time with the small ones
instead of filling my self with empty promises and fake ppl
id rather do what im doin now
be happy with what i got
b/c i realized that the ppl who arent there for me now..
never really were there for me to begin with
and i was just retarded and never saw it
and i want to apologize from the bottom of my heart
for all the ppl i filled with empty promises and the fake me
i love you ppl more than anything
and i left you for what i thought was a better self
an empty me
now i know that i was wrong
and i miss you guys
and i want to go bak and start every second i was with you guys over
but i cant take bak my actions
as to the ones that i thought were true ...its all good
just dont think u affect me
cuz u dont
everyone i talked about was kinda in code
b/c they woudlnt understand
but as for nick imma be straight forward
cuz u always do
u of all ppl
im glad u werent involved and im glad ur down wit me no matter what
cuz besides carly who i have no clue how she feels
u were teh only person i really would have been hurt by if you werent still here for me
i would have been absolutely heartbroken -i miss you-
and i love you
and u are my mind
thats the only way i can explain it
the simplest words are the best i think
and the only ones i can think of are i love you
and thats it
i just want to say sorry to lisa, lester, jessie, brittany, and kalaine
muah and i love adn miss u guys more than i could ever let you know
i just hate so much with all my soul
when ppl think they know all that they dont
like for monica to say im a bad frend....she can lick my fukkin cunt
monica knows NOTHING about me
like i work my ass off for everything
\and i get next to nothing
monica is a spoiled fukkin brat
i have to live on my own and survive
i have to find an appartment
i ahev so many restrictions adn rules
my life IS NOT AT ALL easy
and everyone who says nething can fuk off
on a better note i got my b-a-b-y bak and i love him so much
and im happy with him
and i got a job!!!
and im wit the ppl that i love
and jazzyy!
all the ppl that love me and like me and thhink im a great frend..u know who u arre
and i love you all back
as for the ppl who dont like me or whatever
u can all eat me out for dinner
cuz i could give two shits
muah and kudos to those who deserve it
we learn something new everyday:
today i leanred that im truely sorry
atleast before i had ppl who would actually read my shit
i mean i guess i do it mostly for myself
get shit off my mind
i just think its so funny how ppl are
like they're there one minute
and the second your gone so are they
whackness
but i dont even let it phase me
b/c the world is full of much greater things
as the ppl say "there are bigger fish to fry"
well i hate fish
all kinds of fish
so im not even gonna bother wasting my time with the small ones
instead of filling my self with empty promises and fake ppl
id rather do what im doin now
be happy with what i got
b/c i realized that the ppl who arent there for me now..
never really were there for me to begin with
and i was just retarded and never saw it
and i want to apologize from the bottom of my heart
for all the ppl i filled with empty promises and the fake me
i love you ppl more than anything
and i left you for what i thought was a better self
an empty me
now i know that i was wrong
and i miss you guys
and i want to go bak and start every second i was with you guys over
but i cant take bak my actions
as to the ones that i thought were true ...its all good
just dont think u affect me
cuz u dont
everyone i talked about was kinda in code
b/c they woudlnt understand
but as for nick imma be straight forward
cuz u always do
u of all ppl
im glad u werent involved and im glad ur down wit me no matter what
cuz besides carly who i have no clue how she feels
u were teh only person i really would have been hurt by if you werent still here for me
i would have been absolutely heartbroken -i miss you-
and i love you
and u are my mind
thats the only way i can explain it
the simplest words are the best i think
and the only ones i can think of are i love you
and thats it
i just want to say sorry to lisa, lester, jessie, brittany, and kalaine
muah and i love adn miss u guys more than i could ever let you know
i just hate so much with all my soul
when ppl think they know all that they dont
like for monica to say im a bad frend....she can lick my fukkin cunt
monica knows NOTHING about me
like i work my ass off for everything
\and i get next to nothing
monica is a spoiled fukkin brat
i have to live on my own and survive
i have to find an appartment
i ahev so many restrictions adn rules
my life IS NOT AT ALL easy
and everyone who says nething can fuk off
on a better note i got my b-a-b-y bak and i love him so much
and im happy with him
and i got a job!!!
and im wit the ppl that i love
and jazzyy!
all the ppl that love me and like me and thhink im a great frend..u know who u arre
and i love you all back
as for the ppl who dont like me or whatever
u can all eat me out for dinner
cuz i could give two shits
muah and kudos to those who deserve it
we learn something new everyday:
today i leanred that im truely sorry